I HATE nags

wow. ill read this sh it later. thanks tns.
i cant even read it all now.
after the night i had last night.... wow..... anyways i am weaning off the valiums and should be done in three weeks. no big deal. i dont know why a thread talking about me leaving with my husband has to turn into a bunch of people discussing my benzo addiction.

to those who say i seem generally unhappy though....WRONG. 99 percent of the time i am the ONLY person who is happy that is around.... i just dont tolerate bullshit.

and when i have the time i will get back to all the fucked up comments made....although im pretty sure tns covered me pretty well.

 

thank you.
and thank you tns for saying what you've heard him say.

i could say more but some of this thread pisses me off.... i will be FINE in a few days whether i go to rehab or not and at least to have people understand his attitude and did you ever think maybe i get so medicated a lot because i am CONSTANTLY dealing with insults??? hmmmmm

 

thanks. you are a good friend.
people here say im the cause of this and that problem when all i am trying to do is get OFF the benzos and live with him in my apartment constantly calling me names.
but somehow to certain people on here.... it's all lucky's fault, it always has been and always will be. ignorant bastards really should keep their mouths shut until they've SEEN what it's like.

and relayer... im gonna send you a pm about what happened to me last night. no way in hell id post about it here but it taught me a lesson BIG TIME.
s

 

and you
were taking the time to say all that
and also helping me keep track of what i take
so i can stop
and realizing things about me
i love you sooooo much.

and hhb, i just remembered "i can barely type half the time?" bullshit. every now n then im that messed up but barely never. i usually type better then you. yeah like you now bill but the way you jump all over my shit.... blame me and judge me for everything is bullshit.

so back to happy thoughts....
tns- i just started loving you ten times more then before by reading what you spent the time to write. :kisses:



well i guess that's it.... read the whole thread. which was supposed to be about my husband not benzos. few clarifications- deviate- i havent rolled in four months so you can stratch that from your list. opiates welll i recently had a scary experience and im done with them. i dont even drink anymore..... all i take is valium and tns is right... ive been doing my BEST to cut down safetly. been on benzos for over three months...it's not easy. so to those of you who showed love or support, thank you. to the judge or two- whatever.... like day say on maury "you dont know me"

(ps- even WITH insurance i still owe 3 grand from my last rehab stay. it was 3 years ago and i stayed 10 days only. and ive already paid two grand so yeah maybe rehab sounds nice....like tns a break from here (i need it!) but i dont have grands sitting around for something that i KNOW i can do on my own. i have enuf to safetly wean off and lynsey illl be talking to you about that)

love.

 

You know I got your back baby

 

yay you're back.
i almost cried n hit a cmputer desk during one particular post.. ill talk to you on gmail now before i run to the store.