I have no idea what to do...

yeah i know but after we havent talked in a while and the last time we talked was not really on a good note

 

hey how did you know... except it really wasnt a nice thing... all her other guy friends were there. i dont know why i went.

 

Sounds like she has trouble keeping on track and sticking with a decision.
Though you may be quite attached to her, you need to move on to someone who knows what they want and will stick to that.
It wont be easy, but it will be worth it.

 

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i know. but i dont want to...

 

Well then you'll just continue to be pushed around. Trust me the reason I say the things I do is not to be mean or to hurt anyone's feelings. It is because I've been stepped on many times. The more you let her do that to you, the worse it is going to be for you.

My ex played a lot of mind games on me. Its been almost a year since the break up and still anything that reminds me of him makes me angry. He cheated on me multiple times and I'd take him back (because I thought he would change) and he never did. I did everything and I let him treat me that way because I honestly loved that douche bag. When I think back to all the mind games and shit he did to me. It makes me feel stupid and angry at myself. To some point I still blame myself and it makes it hard for me to trust anyone let alone myself.

If you continue what you are doing, you're only going to do damage and its a lot harder then you think to repair it.

 

She doesnt really push me around though. like ive stopped letting her have any control over me... As far as im concerned... like the games MAYBE but like not directly.... and yeah. my cousin pointed that out too about her wanting control or what ever.. what the fuck is the point of having control over someone if your not using it to get in a relationship with them!!! like why the hell would you do it just for the heck of it..

she sounds like your ex would be but idk if she would be cheating on someone who shes going out with since shes had some steady relationships before... i was sort of waiting for her to change? she said she is.... like... shes still out looking for guys and shit which makes her look bad but she thinks that as long as she doesnt have sex with them that its not wrong... but still i mean when your out looking for a bunch of guys its gonna look bad either way...

yeah... idk... hopefully i dont let it get that bad................. i honestly dont know. i still want to give her chances but at the same time its like, ok your not doing what i want, and im not going to waste my life away waiting for you... so i want her out of my life (well i should, but the less intelligent part of me doesnt care what happens). but i dont just incase she ever changes you know...