i love not being able to do anything.

I must state that I think the reasons that you can't do anything are all in your mind. You could get into your car and drive to Tierra Del Fuego if you wanted to.
the woman they say I am married to had similar problems so she went back to Spain where the doctors and medicines are free. i did take one of her pills once and was i ever high!

 

they say you are married too? then damn i can still steal your heart? good to knowi

 

I'm somewhere in between at the moment. I didn't know this place existed.

 

in between what? the sheets, the curtains, two letters of the alphabet

 

In between states (and i don't mean Pennsylvania and Michigan).


We'll see, Marie, we'll see how it all works out in the end.

 

I was like that once until I completly lost my mind and now I don't care.

 

god it would be wonderful to lose my mind

 

I don’t know, I think losing your mind is overrated. You look at people that have lost it and a lot of them just look terrified. Even the guys you see walking along the street talking to some imaginary person beside them never seem to be having a civil conversation. There isn’t any "ohh look at that flower, it is nice and pretty" or "geepers I love a summer day, don’t you?" They’re always arguing, yelling or something other than pleasant.

I think a temporary misplacement is all I could handle.

 

oh i dont want to lose it permanently. lose it like i lose my keys. i dont know they are missing until i need them. then i search and find them and nothing has been harmed by its misplacement

 

Not really, it makes everything alot harder and you're constantly paranoid that everyone hates you, or aleast I do. i haven't left my house other than work, where I'm not around people at all, or the store for food, and i go really late like 11pm so no one is around. I'm probably ok but I don't do anything so it doesn't come back.

 

Sweet Person, it is so obvious from this and many other posts that you are unhappy with your present marriage. It is a trapped feeling, I know. But, it is really all up to you in the end.