I met a man that i love tonight

matter of fact.. i WILL tell dan about it right now. all it's gonna make him say though is that i really should stop drinking so much and that you really cant trust people and i dont know who i am gonna meet....

 

I was just concerned Trish, because people are fucking crazy and you dont know how sane someone is just by talking to them once...

 

just sounds kinda triffling to me



I thought you and Dan were "a match made in heaven"


why are you still looking?

then again....I'm disappointed that you let a sweet guy with a 10 inch dick get away....tsk tsk

have I taught you nothing?

 

Trish, you are going to die drunk - it's just a matter of time - and that will be a goddamned shame. There is so much suffering in the world; so much suffering, and you have the ability to ease the suffering within yourself. Alcohol is a solvent, that is all it is. The fact that alcohol depresses your central nervous system is just a side effect of alcohol's true Buddha nature - alcohol's true nature is that of a solvent. It can only dissolve - it will start with the lining of you esophagus, then your stomach lining, then your pancreas, then your kidneys, then your liver - and the whole time it will eat away at your capillaries. If a capillary busts in your stomach (an aneurysm), you might survive if you get to the hospital within 20 minutes; if one splits in your brain (a stroke) you'll be lucky if you die on the spot. People who drink like we do can either die or stop drinking - no fucking in-between. On the average, problem drinkers die 25 years before the average life span - 25 fucking years. 25 lost fucking years and a lifetime of suffering. You don't have to be a slave Trish.

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Soooo, did you get the nice respectful dude's digits???

Aww, shoot, I probably shouldn't have said that...

<<HLS smacks herself!!!>>

Seriously though, if you're not happy, booze is gonna make it worse, and if your husband really gives you such an insensitive reply... Well... Maybe you'd be better off elsewhere.

Here's a thought... If you're happy elsewhere, maybe that desire to drink will stop being so strong, so you can start enjoying your life.

Because you deserve it, sweetie.

 

I'm going out on a limb here, but if he is so respectful, he wouldn't have laid with a married woman in bed. If he knew you were married, it wouldn't have gotten that far.

 

Dude, I gotta disagree with that. We all have our weak moments where we almost succumb to desire, but the important thing is that this dude could have totally taken advantage of the situation, and he chose not to.

Hell, I don't even know how well I'd handle a georgeous naked woman in bed basically inviting me to do whatever, and I haven't had the desire to mess around with a chick in YEARS.

 

But I think you're looking at this the wrong way. It's kind of like the person saying well I didn't die. I'll be happy I can drink my meals through a straw. Cheating is wrong no matter how you measure it. He knew she was married. If you know you have a weakness with drinking, shouldn't you take the responsibility to drink less.

 

haha well i admit it was all stupid. (and yes, i have this email and number)

 

btw, brian and some other people...

maybe i just dont care if i do die. maybe i want to meet some pyscho who will just KILL ME so i dont have to continue doing it slowly.... slowly is starting to hurt way too fucking much.

 

From what I've read, which is the first page, 99% of the people here are real asses. That's excluding Lynsey and the other few people that weren't showing pictures of drunk people and making fun of people's hair color. Trish I can understand that you guys were strong, you didn't succumb totally to temptation, I see nothing wrong with laying in bed with him, it's not like you can turn off your feelings for someone.

 

I for one don't want you to die. There are so many other options out there than this path your taking. Your not even happy with it. Thats what really matters, YOU!!!!

What are you afraid of if you went and got help? Whats the worst that can happen if you sobered up and started thinking clearly? YES, it might be hell in the beginning but it's hell now for you. Are you having any fun through all this?

I went to detox and I went to rehab for 28 days. After that I had outpatient therapy. The doctors were able to help me get through my withdrawls. Thank God it's not like it used to be where they tie you to a bed and leave the room. They actually give you something while your withdawing. There are counselors on call 24/7. The deal is if your not serious about you than they won't be as much either. Only you can make this decision.

You went to the hospital last week but ou were not there long. What happened while you were there?

 

Trish, you're a nice girl. But you have problems, big ones. And the biggest problem you have, is that you refuse to help yourself. You KNOW you have problems, and you do absolutely dick shit to try and solve them. I think you gave up on yourself a long time, and I think you are wrong in doing so. No one is going to come along and save you, you've gotta do it yourself. You're strong enough, just dig deep and fucking DO something about it before it's too late.
Get busy dying, or get busy living.

 

Trish I must say one thing after reading what you have wrote. I have never dated a man who wouldn't be furious with me for getting drunk and jepordizing my life and my dignity. Maybe your relationship is the root of your problems.
It is obvious that I don't agree with dreamwaever or any other person on here who has no sense of empathy. But I think you should condider whether or not someone who doesn't mind if you lay down next to another guy truely cares about you.

 

no, he prolly would be upset. actually, he prolly be mad. it would have been different if we talked about it beforehand but we didnt so... no, he wouldnt be happy.

im sure he'd forgive me if im honest with him but he wouldnt just blow it off...

 

Trish,
God or Allah or The Great Spirit or the Great Pumpkin or whatever, created you. This universe was created, and you were created by the same force (call it what you will) - you were put on this fucked-up planet for a reason. Look at all the misery around you; you can do something about it, you can ease the suffering of others; you can do it in small ways, you can do it in quiet ways. However you choose to help others, you have to do it now. The alcohol, the pain, the oxy, the cocaine, the horse, the tabs, the fear - all this shit wants to kill you - this dark force wants to hurt everybody who loves you, it wants to stop you from your true purpose, it wants to blind you, so you are unable to see your true purpose. So shake your fucking head Trish and clear out the fucking cobwebs and get out into the streets. You can NOT use alcohol safely - you can NOT use drugs safely (some people can, but we can't). And don't start saying shit about dying, because if God or Allah or The Great Spirit or the Great Pumpkin or whatever wanted you dead, you would be fucking dead - dead. But you're not dead, and this is the greatest gift - you have another day to help others. You have another day to defeat the dark forces that are allied against you. Right here, right now, if you are alive, then you have already won.

 

we were all put on this earth for a reason. I think that was the perfect thing to say to her.

 

I wish I had somebody to love...

Now I have that damn song the blues brothers did stuck in my had....

I need you, you, you (In the evening)... I need you, you, you (when my soul's on fire)
I need someone to love (someone to love)
Sweetheart to miss...
Sugar to kiss....

 

love is not real

 

Ok I have to catch a bus in 1 min so havnt had time to read this entire thread but from what I have, some of you are going down by the time Ive finished with you. Will write more in here tomorrow. PM me Trish, love you sweety.