i saw my body...

sorry i didn't mean you thought gaining weight was weird as a whole.

i would have thought also there would be extremehealth risks involved in gaining that much weight to be honest. i mean...what is 500lbs in stone?


it sounds way over 18 anyway...or am i off the mark there?

 

I agree Mine is the same way. yay for great guys!

 

ive felt that way for awhile then when i actually did somethin about the things i didnt like about my body i felt better about my self and accepted it. then i moved and got depressed and got flabby so ive been hatin my body ever since. Even more right now since im pregnant. i think about all the baby fat that im going to have after the baby is born and even right now i hate my body. My boyfriend say i look just fine but i hate how i look. the only thing that i have found to make me feel better or take my mind off of what i look like is comedy movies, or lifting weights.

 

hahaha this is my thread for the day. of course i believe its whats inside that counts.. but hey.. im human and i do have eyes... so of course i am also unhappy with my body in some ways. oh how ugly art thou i say to myself.... let me count the ways:
1. white but not snow white pretty complexion white.. just not tan white because im scared of tanning beds and never get out .. skin which makes me look fatter too which i will get to but first as a side note on my skin, pizza face ring any bells?? ok its alot better now at least though im still not happy but still.. whew)
2. im not fat but im sure as hell flabbier than alot of the german girls around here who were blessed into families who taught them how to eat healthily whereas i was fed mcdonalds from the bottle (figuratively speaking)
... a) pudgy belly ... my belly button looks like a grumpy frown instead of a
joyous oval mouth in song.... at least it hides the fact that i have a
little bean shaped peice of flesh that hurts if i pinch it residing inside..
b)i have a nice ass but instead of tight upper legs to accentuate it i have
wobbly flesh underneath that my butt somehow gets lost in
c) my inner thighs flap in the wind
3.WHAT THE HELL ARE THESE???????? is the question i had for God when puberty kicked in and my breasts decided it hadn't and never would. my boobs are small.. but actually... they are large enough to keep me happy but like my belly button they are not the perkiest little perkers. sometimes i wonder what is so interesting about my toes that they insist on staring at them constantly. *sigh... of course.. nothing a wonderbra can't distract from.... but between these less-than-glorious-mountains lies not a narrow valley of cleavage... but the valley of death. any little man who tries to cross the valley between my breasts will die before he gets to the next mountain. it is infinate. in fact... my breasts arent looking at my toes they are looking at the floor.. in opposite corners of the room.
4.stretch marks. evil . pure evil. on my thighs .. on my breasts.. as if my breasts needed the extra embarrassment.... and if i take after my mother .. soon to make me look like a fly trapped in a spider web saying "help me helllllllllppppp meeee" after i have a baby ... coming soon... to a stomach near you.
5. ok like you all give a crap but... here goes.... the TOES. sometimes my dad used to look at them and just point and laugh. thanks dad. but really my second toe.. my REAL big toe... (at least i wear the pants in the family haha) i swear must be a distant relation to E.T.

ok.. so theres my body.. feel sorry for me yet? well.. dont because honestly I'M BEAUTIFUL SO FUCK OFF COSMO!

 

ha! that was brilliant and well put my friend!! your outlook on your whole body may be the same as a few of us here, but you put it in your own words to make it seem more visual, and you are beautiful!!! I admire your sense of honesty (as well as everyone else who posted on this thread).

*hugs*

novarys

 

Beauty comes in so many forms, which is why every woman looks different.

I'm 18 years old, 5'10'' and I am a little over 300 pounds. That is the first time I have been honest about my weight to anyone but my doctor ever. And it feels good to be so honest.

I don't like myself most of the time. I have the double belly-roll going on. Rolls hang over everywhere. My boobs (which would be tiny, if I were a smaller girl) look like another fat roll unless in a good bra (Victoria Secret Plus size rocks). My thighs and butt are nothing but cellulite. My stomach is horrid. I don't like pictures because of how my double chin sticks out.

However, I can look at myself in the mirror. I love me. I am natural. I work out. I eat right. I'm just the size that nature intended me to be. My joints don't hurt when I walk. I don't suffer from normal obesity-related maladies, so I don't worry too much about my weight.

My only problem is when guys look at me. I see beauty, but not anything that a guy would find attractive. So when a guy says, "you're beautiful" I immediately go on the defensive and try to back away. I want to find a guy who thinks I am beautiful, but in doing so, I start to wonder, "is he with me because of me or because he has a fat fetish?" I dunno...I am beautiful but sometimes my beauty is hard for me to accept.

Holly

 

wow Holly,

thanks for being honest, being honest is so hard to do sometimes huh?
I think it's great that you can look at yourself and feel confident in your physical look. We need more positive people like you in this world to rub off thier optimisic views on others who may not feel quite the same way.
thanks!
novarys

 

i've posted multiple times on the forums about my eating disorder, here we go again...


i was an akward kid. at 12 years old, i was about 5'4, and about 120 pounds. i looked like a woman, not a kid. kids are mean though, and i was profoundly effected by anything negative that anyone said about my appearance. i come from an overweight family, and i assumed that being thinner would mean being happier.
i started losing weight, at first not on purpose, but eventually, it was. i got a hell of a lot more attention as the ultra skinny girl than as the perfectly average girl.
by 17, i was about 5'6 and weighed about 92 pounds. the smallest clothes on the rack were too big. still i was unhappy. no boobs, no shape at all, and what do you know, even at 92 pounds, one can still have cellulite.
i got married when i was 18, and went into treatment, because i felt so shitty. i was sick all the time, and could barely hold down a job because i was so tired.
in the years since i have gained a few pounds, and lost a few pounds. i think i topped out about a year and a half ago at 107 pounds. i weighed last week at work, and i am back under a hundred. i still feel fat, i guess i always will.
i hate the way i look. there are so many things that i would change about myself if i could, but above all, i just wish i could get over myself and be happy.

 

wow, thanks for posting.
it's good to be able to get this stuff off your chest.

sadly, we dont do it enough, in fear of rejection and critism. so i admire your strength to post it publicly
thank you

 

[/QUOTE]I don't have the flat stomach anymore. My thighs are definitely not what most would consider ideal, or even attractive. I've got nice little cellulite saddle-bags happening. I feel sexier than ever. I love to look at myself naked in the mirror. I really do look like a woman, with curves & boobs & enuf body fat to actually carry a healthy baby to term when I'm ready! When I shake my ass, I can actually shake it instead of just having a bunch of bones rattling around! Hell, I can't even see my ribs anymore!!![/QUOTE]
This makes me smile so much. It's beautiful! All women should feel this way. It's so hard to, I know. From elementary school to high school I hated my body. I was the fat, shy girl. I thought I was the ugliest person ever. But I've learned to love myself. I've grown into my curves and my fiance tells me every day how beautiful I am, and for once I actually believe it. I have my bad days, but overall, I love the skin that fills out what the world sees when they see me. I never want to be a skinny girl. I want to be healthy, with curves, and a womanly shape. But I'm not saying skinny girls are unattractive. I think all women can be beautiful, and are, if they learn to believe it themselves.

 

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very true, when i was excercising like i should be, not like now, i felt great- i was also looking great. i used to run about a mile a day and workout with weights and excercises, i really need to start doing that again. i do believe i will do it tomororw.

 

We all know that MANY women are unhappy with their bodies and that some of the things we don't like about our selves, we are unable to change BUT I find it insulting to hear people say things like "My breasts aren't big enough." Big enough for what?! Is there some standard...some way that a woman is SUPPOSED to look? NO! People have all sorts of ideas of what physical beauty looks like. I feel like so many of the women posting think that having a flat stomach or large tits will make them beautiful. It's obvious as to where you get that idea. We are constantly sorrounded (at least in Amerika) by pictures and examples of woman who all have a certain body type in common. I say, throw that out the window. Focus on maintaining good health aka "my definition of beauty".