I started cutting again...

Confessor,

I did like your posting..there is a lot of thruth in it..
I have never been a cutter..and never will..
If Water dreamer's urge to cut is stronger then herself..
then NOBODY will be able to help her..
she has got to take matters in her own hands..
Somehow cutters see no other solution..it's an urge..
they can't control themselves..a pity really...
Anyhow..I do wish Lisa all the best for the future..

 

there are tons of other solutions. but none that work as fast or as well. That's the truth.

I have been cut free for over a year (maybe almost 2) and I still get urges because I know all I would have to do is sit down with a razor blade and make a small incision and all my tight, anxious, horrible feelings go away.

There are other options. That's why I can sit here today and say I havn't cut in a long time. But the urges still haven't gone away.

 

http://crystal.palace.net/~llama/psych/injury.html
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thanks for the kind words...from most of you anyway...i want to stop but its hard. the main reason i want to stop though is only cause my mom...it upsets her like helll..i really don't care what other people think of my scars but my mom freaks out when she see's them. they're sending me to a shrink though and i plan on recording every fucked up thing my dad says (who is the root of all my problems basically...and yes i do like blaming my problems on others) and then play it back for the shrink...hopefully something will be done with him then.

 

Waterdreamer,

Nice to hear from you you want to stop cutting..
I guess the ONE who needs a shrink....
is not YOU..but your dad..
Wish you all the best,Lisa..

 

sounds like you're using cutting as a way of getting out anger at your dad. I mean, you obviously can't talk with him and get out how you feel. It's got to come out somehow. I understand.

The one thing that is sad for me to hear is that you want to stop for your mom.

Don't you want to stop for you?

You're so beautiful. You know that.

 

naw...i love my mom more than me...i'm not really significant

 

ill only post that link so many times, USE IT, i like it

 

I am with her on this one

 

yes... but I'd say... more like a cutter cuts because their soul has wounds that are manifesting outside, not because someone else needs to see them, but because the person herself needs to recognize them. Everything you need to heal yourself you have in yourself. If you decide to, they will manifest around you and in you.

 

tough stuff..