I think...

I really wish I could put into words better, if I sit down and try to write it out one day maybe I can, but honestly I feel like a woman. Like I should've been born female and got cheated out of that and now my brain is just in this male body and saturated with testosterone. And actually sexual attraction isn't related to it at all, gender and orientation are totally separate. Like I'm bi to a certain degree, but I greatly prefer the looks of women and don't think I could ever have romantic feelings for a man and I'm willing to voluntarily give up what attracts most women(i.e. just being a man)

Interesting fact, they still have no definite clue on what causes it but they've done scans on people's transgendered peoples brains before they even started taking any hormone therapy and they found their brains were naturally already "wired" more like their mental gender vs what would be expected from their physical one.

 

do it

haha im actually applying to med school right now to specialize in sexual reassignment surgeries

 

Really?? Ah now I can actually ask a question, what made you interested enough in it to want to do that?

 

well, past relationships (so far, 3 of my ex's are now pre op (and 1 post op) ftms), the general fucked up mentality that most surgeons have about it. for example i sat in on a SR and he died within two weeks of being released from the hospital (same day! crazy) because the doctors didnt give him the right meds, post op care or anything. its such a taboo in the med field im down for opening it up and doing what i can.

 

You'd be a sexy doctor, i'd let you give me a vagina.

 

i can arrange that.

 

That is awesome of you, tonight I'm drinking in your honor:cheers2:

 

fuck that i should be drinking in yours.

im actually sitting in on another surgery next thursday its going to be sweet!

 

it's really brave of you to sit and watch surgery.. (any kind of surgery) mad props, I have a really weak stomach with that kind of stuff. :cheers2:

 

haha yeah some people just freak out ive had a lot of people around me faint haha. i think vet/animal surgeries are way harder to watch than human ones though.

 

Well thats a pretty hard job I bet.