I want to die

Sometimes the truth can be more helpful than filling your head with fabrications and lies just to appease you

Hotwater

 

First off, do you have ANY IDEA how many people start threads like this for NO OTHER REASON than to get attention? When I saw that you only had a few posts, I assumed you had not been here very long. When someone posted you mentioned a girlfriend, I saw evidence that you were lying. People do it. Especially here. I don't know you from Adam, so I have no reason to trust you when someone points out contradictions in your posts. If this was an untrue assumption, I apologize, but it was not an unreasonable one.

Second, I have been clinically depressed (and on medication until my brain reacted badly to it and almost killed me), but suicide was never an option, because I have a little something called a survival instinct (not to mention people have done it around me, and I know first hand the INSUFFERABLE PAIN it inflicts on one's family and would never do something SO SELFISH), and I know that whatever shit people pull on me, there is always the hope of starting over. I defeated my depression by getting mad at it and telling it that it was no longer welcome to stay and tell me what I could and couldn't do. You, however, have given up. You've let it win. If I had done what you have done, I would be dead right now, and that pisses me off to no end. Life is precious, because you can make it so much beauty and instead you revel in that which hurts you because you are comfortable with it and too afraid to do anything different. You are complacent. You have no fight. Suicide pisses me off to no end, and THAT is the reason behind the venom in this post, sir. I did NOT make a joke for my own amusement. I made it in an attempt to bite my tongue and not loose the beast on you as you have invited me to do by commenting on something so minuscule as a two letter post.

GROW A PAIR AND GROW UP.

You have to WORK for happiness in this life, son. No one hands it to you.

But you've run away. Good method, by the way. Seems to have worked out for you so far. None of this will touch you anyway even if you had bothered to read it, because you are complacent. So fuck it. Do whatever you want.

 

post count is not a count of posts... many people have very low post counts just because they choose not to post in the crappier forums here.

i support the rest of your message.

 

Beautiful sentiment. I wholeheartedly agree. :cheers2:

Good to know, thanks.

 

I like you.

 

stale copypasta.

 

it really is EXTREMELY hard to lose weight or to not become fat in the first place. many people have one hell of a genetic predisposition to put it on and keep it on, and the completely shitty food that bombards us and the general unwalkable-ness of the places we live makes it happen without us even realizing it. plus we have that leftover instinct from our earliest ancestors telling us to take in the most calories possible.

 

From what I can tell you are not in any type of situation that you can't change with some old fashioned will power my friend. Obesity isn't a disease. Believe me when I say I completely understand that the fatter you get the harder it is to exercise. Its a vicious cycle. But nobody is making you eat more than you need to or sit on the internet instead of living.

Go get some goddamn exercise, you'll feel much better and it'll get easier - a beneficial cycle

 

Maybe you should try some chamomile tea?

tl;dr

 

Make yourself a blues album. You can call it "I'm a sorry sad sack."

Seriously though, pull yourself together. No woman is gonna go out with the guy crying in the corner because no one will go out with him. And if they did it would be a pitty date. You know what you want, thats good. But now you have to find out what it's going to take to achieve what you want, and do it. No one else is going to do it for you, you have to take charge of your own life!

 

how about just getting a rope and wellllll...

oh wait, that may be considered "cyber-bullying"

ah fuck it, just end it now

 

It is difficult. I get that because I'm working on it myself. I spent a year being overweight and found that the further I got into it, the harder it was to motivate to get up and walk around. And that scared me. So here I am back at a healthy weight, because it is more important that I be able to get up and go like I used to. I am still not where I want to be, but I am working on it every day. I have unmotivated days like everyone else, but at least diabetes or heart disease won't be taking me out anytime soon.
You also really learn a lot about yourself in terms of your attachment to food. It's really a matter of changing your relationship to it and changing bad habits. If you take care of the whole picture, in general, it is easier than to just going on yo-yo diets to get thin. You have to find something you like more than eating. And for some people that's just their favorite hobby and they don't want to change that.

I felt better once it was out, lol. But I love chamomile tea, so maybe next time. :coffee:

Well, I like people that like me, so lucky you!

 

do you live in a lava pit?

 

at least that would be a semi-plausible excuse

 

If I ever killed myself I would buy a real nice canvas and sit in front of it. Then I'd blow my brains back onto it with a 45.

Hanging is just so boring.


Or I'd take a manhole out of the street, go to the roof of the nearest building, and see if I can make a 10 point dive.


If you're gonna be a winey lame ass... at least don't die boringly.

 

suicide bomb ftw.

 

I just hope I'm not too absent-minded to remember to sign the canvas when I'm done.

*Ba-dum-CHING* lol

 

Jump into a volcano while playing "Ride of the Valkayries".

 

you guys know i wasn't saying that it's IMPOSSIBLE to walk. you also know that what with the advent of the automobile the way our cities and neighborhoods are laid out has changed. if you live in a compact place with an active downtown with crosswalks, sidewalks, etc. then that's awesome. but where i and many people live there are not even any fucking sidewalks and you have to cross eight lanes of traffic with no provisions being made for you as far as the timing of the street lights. it's somewhat risking your safety. don't be an asshole for no reason.

 

things could always be much worse. hang in there
and p.s. you dont need to be with another person to have a positive sense of self-worth. you need to be comfortable and content with yourself before you even consider being involved with another person. the most important relationship you have is the one with yourself