Im so fucking lonely.

You can't trust anyone here at this backstabbing place except for a few

 

Im turning on you for being self absorbed, if you chill out i will be nice again.

 

u have come to the moment u think u can trust somebody on a forum?
how can i explain to u this isn`t real life woman ?
u would never ever see most of us in real life and from the internet u cannot really have a true, close emotional relationship with someone.
Now pleaseeeeee go to s shrink and go live ur life in the reality and not in here :cheers2:

 

I've honestly shut myself in for four years, my friends kept inviting me out and i kept turning them down until they no longer invited me out, no surprise really.

I did it to myself, i was feeling traumatized, there is something about watching the girl you love exchaning numbers with one of the guys beating you up that for some reason has a long lasting effect.

I know i am responsible for my situation, but its like i have finally woken up and accepted that its my own fault. All of a sudden i feel sad and lonely, not that i have any one to blame but i just wanted to rant about it.

I know it can be turned around i just felt like sharing.

P.S.
Cheers GreenGirl, its nice to know that peope out there want to help

 

So why does everyone else "love" here

I believe in being genuine(sp) even on a forum

 

I don't need anyone if they act you all

 

well I go through moods where I need people but then if they act lile an asshole I don't need them

 

Thanks for derailing my thead i really felt like i needed to share, i dont often use the forums for support, so the fact i made this thread makes it obvious to me that i really need to get this off my chest.

But you win, this thread is now about how much of a fucking you bitch you are, you win.

 

Look I don't know or have a lot in have anything common with people where I live

I have a lot of people I talk to and a few good friends so at times I get veey lonely

 

well why don`t u find people u can actually talk to in person eh ?
or do u think I am a person who can help u and care about u ? Girl i am somebody unknown for u, u don`t know me u haven`t even see me and u would never see me! How can u think..oh fuck that i just think u cannot really understand what i am trying to tell u, so i am stoping this.

btw do u have anyone, anyone in your real life (not in the fucking internet) u communicate with >?

 

sorry

 

Yeah im sure there are plenty of people on the forum who will want to help you, i am now not one of them

 

I didn't mean it

 

lord jezz I'm sorry!

 

hey xac, ive delt with agrophobia alot in my life, its practically a daily thing for most of my life really. and sometimes i dont even realize that im shutting myself out, and then my friends will all come over to my house and get me to socialize. what helps the most when you realize that you've been keeping yourself away from everyone is to take it in small steps. call up some old friends and catch up, hang out with your 3 closest friends. if you guys all go to a bar, or to a club, or some sort of social place, you can talk to other ppl and meet other ppl with the support of your friends being there helps.

i hope i was a bit helpful

 

Well ill start by saying that the reply itself helps because it means some one cares, so thank you.

Yeah i do hang out with my 3 friends alot but they've been busy, which of course is fair enough but it made me realise how much i depend on them for socializing and that i really need to get out there more on my own, but it is hard for me.

It's just hard for me to balance my mistrust and bitterness with openess to people i havent met yet, i am the first to admit that i am jaded, i think i sound whiney but i also think if most people knew why i am jaded it would make more sense.

Anyway, thank you.

 

i made a new friend this year, and she ended up trying to break up my friends' marriage. i have a circle of friends that i keep very close to me and i have a hard time trusting ppl i meet. but i have met some really great new friends that made me really happy that i have them in my life.

 

So why dont u take up a hobby or sport.
Some people might even panic and go for monogamy?

PS many people's circles shrink from 17 to early 20s.
People tend to start to go out in smaller groups etc..

 

Well actually i am a very monogomous man, not that i can't appreciate the beauty of many women but i have always been happy with a long term close relationship with a woman.

I know many people's circles shrink, i guess in many ways i just like to be social but i guess it is also just accepting that i have isolated myself from many good people that i could've been still close to.

It's not so much that i feel sorry for myself, although i do in some aspects but thats something else for another thread. Its that i am angry with myself for giving so much up for no good reason. If i had isolated myself but actually was doing something meaningful with my time it would've been worth it but i havent, i have just isolated mysef and hid my mind in movies and video games... that and a lot of marijuana and xanax.

 

friends grow apart too.
You just gotta work with what u have .And build a better future.
Everyone makes mistakes
( myself excepted ofcourse)