Im so fucking lonely.

Of course

Yeah, im feeling better now, im glad to have gotten that off my chest.

 

Maybe you don't talk with your so called friends because you no longer think they are interesting.

If you just want to have a place to fit in join a health spa?

 

No I shut myself off from the world completely because i was very hurt, i dont really feel like getting into it any more at the moment.

 

I'm not trying to sound demeaning but don't it suck how peoples most personnel life changing problems always sound so dull and cliche when written down hastily?

Kinda makes you wonder if the problem was all that big to begin with.

 

dont really feel like keeping my scars up.

 

I've found over the years that having a lot of friends is overrated they will just stab you in the back. I have like two really close friends that i trust and I like it that way.

 

Wow that's quite an origin you have pieced together for yourself, did it help you vent? lol

 

I'd like to say so but not really, i've told this shit to people before but unless you've experianced at such a young age it is hard to understand, its like saying it to a brick wall, people care but they just cant really understand.

So i feel good at first for sharing but then when all is said and done its still all on my shoulders.

P.S. could you unqoute that? id like to delete if i so choose.

 

I feel yah xac I've been through sum abuse to still recovering from it. People are so fucked up they don't think about or care for that matter what damage they are causing people. Just remember you are special and you are loved. Times are tough right now but you are being tested and if you pull through the tough time you will be rewarded in the end even though it seems you won't. Keep your chin up, make music your love, or art, sumthing that you can channel your energy through. If you get to lonely and need to talk I'm here for you I know how you feel.

Peace and Love to you

 

people are so fucking sick sometimes. and they fuck up ppls lives. kindergarden? my god.

 

Some of the greatest musicians, artist, writers and so on lived very traumatic lives. Isn't that kinda weird.

 

I'm not implying that those awful things didn't happen to you I'm trying to say that those are moments you are consciously choosing to base your life currently around.

You can change whenever you want to.

Maybe cliche isn't ALWAYS a bad thing after all.

 

nearly everyone i know has been through something tramatic.

 

I base my life around those things do i? jeez thanks for the therapy, honestly though dont tell me what i am basing my life around. You told me that my problems are mundane, maybe they are i just wanted to see if you'd say the same thing if you actually knew where they stem from.

Truth is i am waking up to my problems within myself, the things i have described are only the source of the problems, not the problems themselves. I dont really want any advice but thanks anyway.

 

Not me, i have a close friend who i know has gone through similar stuff + some more so he is good to talk to but most people i know really haven't suffered that much, at least not so young... i mean 3 is pretty god damn young to learn about the sins of man.

 

as a mother of a 3 year old boy, if anyone did anything to him, i would slice them up and bury them in the mine chats

 

Well your three year old is lucky to have a mother as strong as you, i dont blame mine for not being able to, although i know she felt some what similar.

 

hey xac. hoefully ur feeling a bit better now. i know a bit of what ur feeling. i got a touch of agrophobia as well and have been signed off work at the moment with depression ( altho i think thats slighty ott on the docs part but whatever) anyway i did exactly what u did and isolated myself from my friends and family because of some traumatic experience i went through, and just withdrew and like u i am regretting it now. i dont really have any advise to give on how to make it all better coz i havent and really wudnt know, just want u 2 know if u eva want to chat about it, ur more than welcome to chat to me. i know that all sounds a bit lame, but its just so u know, if u eva feel u want to chat and dont know who to chat to, im usually about.

take care man

 

Well, it happens. Work and all sorts of things that have to be done minimize time for socialising... and friendships go away...

 

Cool, i may very well take you up on that, im off to watch a movie.

To everyone one else: the moon landings are now officially a fake, deal with it.