I can relate to this whole thread. Words cannot describe the beauty of the world through my opiate eyes. Especially if you taking it for chronic pain, they can seem like nature's cure all taking any and all pain away. Pain relief complete with a dreamy, warm, euphoric, calming bliss. Relaxed but stimulated, colors so vivid, music so crisp. All focus and comprehension sharp and clear. You feeling excellent with reduced pain in a way that you wouldn't have otherwise. The sense of happiness, contentment and inner peace all while being wrapped up in a warm and cozy blanket of euphoria is almost supremely divine. Until your supply runs out, then the destructive power of opiate use becomes merciless. Dangerously addictive, the depths it can cause it's users to drop to are increasingly sick. They have turned ordinary people into lying, thieving, family destroying prostitutes. Including a lot of our glamorous, world famous celebrities and prominent political members. Destroying careers, normal people who have turned into skeletons of their healthy selves. It shows no class, race, or sex discrimination of the lives opiates have destroyed. The way they make you feel in withdrawal is like an evil tradeoff of all the feelings that I described above. So I do think that they are a gift from nature that should be regarded with complete respect.
Well said, Oxyqueen. There are definitely 2 sides to the opiate experience. The trick is to not let your supply run out, but that's easier said than done, as I'm sure we all know. Even if you have a prescription, you still find yourself running out early as your tolerance increases over time. As for me, my script is for 10mg Hydrocodone 5 times per day, and that's pushing the limit for what they'll prescribe. I told my Dr I was running out early, so he added Tramadol, 50mg 4 times per day. It's much weaker, but it keeps the wd's away when I run out early. But the Tramadol doesn't do much for pain.
Opiate bliss can not be understood by those who haven't experienced it. And while Opiates affect many users differently, its the heavenly Euphoria that grabs each one, wraps them in a warm blanket, enabling us to see a world we had only dreamed about until that point. That truth is THE reason for our dependence and addiction. The Real Evil of this addiction has nothing to do with withdrawals, the physical or Psychological damage it does, it is the fact that our addiction does not allow us to live the life a human was physically and mentally designed to live. Simply not being able to see reality, feel it emotionally and face it physically. I like many felt the reality I saw during use, feelings I felt and the physical events I took part in, were all the reality I, as a simple human being was suppose to feel. Opiates MASK many of the things we are suppose to experience naturally and replaces them with experiences we desire, in our minds we concluded that these are the experiences we are suppose to have. I get the fact that for so many of us, a life without opiates just SUCKS, been there, done that and in some ways still doing it. From pain that started my use, to a boring life that was left after all the damage. I can remember easily, life before my opiate addiction. I mentally stayed inside my world, getting my people Fix from family and friends and rarely ventured out of that comfort zone, thinking that in my view it was happiness. The biggest thing about myself that I remember from pre-opiate days was the fact I was an angry individual. When the small issues popped up, like day to day mundane stuff, like starting the day off getting up from the wrong side of the bed type issues. Spilling your first cup of coffee, cutting yourself while shaving....etc, never thinking logically about it and deciding that SHIT JUST HAPPENS. Instead, my mad meter would peg out causing such ridiculous stress. This became hidden during my use, completely changing me as a person but my character certainly hung on to that anger below the surface. Going through the process of beginning Opiates due to CP, then moving on through dependence into addiction and finally landing at the bottom, that whole process allowed me to find a window that I could see the world from without anger pushing me through it. I posted this here because since the end of my opiate use some 27 months ago and Subutex 16 months ago, I have on a couple occasions felt that anger and blamed it on just about every other med I had been taking, from anti-anxiety to blood pressure to Cholesterol meds. At one point stopping all of my meds for a week to see if I could actually prove to myself that it indeed was a med. Nope, it simply wasn't true. How blind dis I have to be to not see that my anger was always there, well before I introduced meds for those issues? My whole point behind this is that our brains are absolutely capable of pushing us up to our breaking point and in many cases blowing right past it. Fortunately, that lump 3ft above our asses is also capable of reversing course without much help but only if we get the fuck out of it's way and allow it to. Like 99% of addicts, I myself tried quitting and failed more times than I'd like to admit. That happened not because I saw the damage of my addiction but more likely that I experienced the side effects from the use. The anxiety caused by running out early and facing withdrawals to the withdrawals itself, saying I hate this I can't do this anymore to the natural euphoria upon realizing that refill day is tomorrow. That roller coaster ride isn't the root evil of addiction, they are merely side effects. Lastly, I write stuff like this, not because someone said it first or that I grabbed bits and pieces from various sources even though most of us have reads accounts much like this, many times. I write and share it because it is directly from what I have experienced and what I write is never ever purposed for pushing anyone to stop their addiction. Unlike many post-use addicts, I don't sit in judgment of anyone, because not only will I never forget where I came from but more because that journey from, never ends!
The worst is definitely running out early with a script. I say every time how I'll manage and not over do it stick to what the doc orders and everytime it's like oh I'll be cool taking a few extra here a few extra there and take a lower dose when I'm running low. Nope never works out and I run out early most of the time and dread every day that I have to wait for my refill. I hate living like that.
you hit the nail on the head bro. I know you posted this a while ago but as I've mentioned before, I have sparingly used opiates for almost 8 years but never experienced w/ds because I don't binge on them. I know the craving will always be there so attempting to control it, kinda like dexter lol, is the best way i think for me to handle the mental addiction. besides total sobriety which isn't what i want right now. haha
Fuck man, this thread stinks of total illness. Life off opiates is shit? that's your own mental problems my friend. I was addicted to opiates for 3 years and you can not experience true pleasure like being clean and healthy. to anyone thinking opiates are the only way of life to seek professional help ASAP as your mind is ill and not thinking with clarity.
I've been trying to stay away from this thread because I'm pregnant and recently stopped taking suboxone and have almost no energy at times anymore and obviously I can't run to opiates... but this thread keeps calling my attention. I wanna say the first post, yea, pretty spot on. For me, I just describe it like this though... on opiates-it doesn't matter WHAT I'm doing... could be nothing, or shopping or with my son in the park or...whatever...doesn't matter what but life just feels RIGHT. Nothing at all is wrong. Everything is okay (beyond okay), yes, perfect is good because it really doesn't matter what other circumstance, really nothing is wrong in the world.
But I don't think life off of opiates is total shit. Once off opiates for a while, life is just life... has it's ups and downs. But that doesn't mean that ON opiates, nothing is ever wrong and everything is always right.
If you're taking Opiates on a daily basis for your head you have serious issues with life. I can identify this because I used Heroin for my head and many drugs before it for a long time and the drugs were just my solution to my problem that was my head. Opiates deny you of the true feelings of life. I don't believe people can experience the true essences of life by blocking their feelings with the warm blanket of opiod abuse. Yeah opiates feel good, for a little while. then they just make you stop feeling and drain you of the person you once were or should have become. Only with some clean time and personal development will this become clear. Opiates are deceiving and deceptive things which try to tempt me back often, but I know where they end up... and it's not the dream they try to sell to me.
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I been on opiates for 20+ year's and I prefer roxys 30 MG IR- instant relief and I have found that they are top notch! They don't get any better I like to chew then swallow I always take those my mouth a I got up at 6 o'clock this morning I feel great!
