ljfe feels empty without drugs

nodding off but just barely maintaining consciousness is probably the most blissful state i can imagine, especially if i am just sober enough to manage to finish a glass of wine and a joint, too.

i can believe you about injection being too much. i had a best friend for a while who would shoot up. he even said that injection was his favorite method for any drug, and that if he could shoot up weed he would.

he also told me some scary stories about when he used (i was never there, but i saw him after he shot up plenty of times and it was a little unsettling)

one time he was parked in his car at a park and shot up...it was just a bit too much for him and he couldnt stay awake. nodded off completely, passed out. woke up with the needle still in him.

i can't even imagine something hitting that hard.

i like the long, drawn out sedation....

i think i'll stick with oral use if i ever get opiates again....

but if i were to come into a really really strong pill or a powder, i'd be mighty tempted to try smoking or sniffing...

 

True. Id never dream of touching it again, thats for sure.

 

One of my coworkers daughters just checked into a halfway house last week, she has been 'quitting' heroin for the last 3 years that I've known her.
She actually told her mom to go in her bad and throw out the needles left in there, and her mom found 2 bundles of heroin (from the size she explained to me, that's my guess). Which is a good sign if your willing to up and move on like that.

 

yeah, thats a good move on her part.

this dude isn't "clean and sober" but he's off the dope, which is good:cheers2:

 

Yup, oxy's strangle the life out of you in the most subtle ways.

 

You would think so, but I've seen many people go the wrong way with them. Even one of my better friends lost his dad to heroin overdose when he was 12, and started using oxys. Last time I talked to him he was sniffing bags. I guess at times, some people dont care anymore

 

somebody said:

-drugs are meant to enhance your life, not be your life

 

weak? thats not the case.

cautious is more suiting.

 

Has Ivy ever thought about not filling the emptiness with anything- and just being an open wound until it heals itself?

Boy, it's a difficult path. Don't try it!-

 

What can I say? Im a natural born jammer of frequencies :cheers2:

 

So what fills the hole in your head?

 

A bullet.

 

i like that i like that

 

honestly, there are days I feel like I am on drugs.

 

How is that possible?

 

i get that relatively frequently, even when not using any sort of drug.

some people's brains just function differently. i've always been this way, far before i ever used any drug.

 

so why are you here then?

 

the wrong wiring.

I've spent a lot of time talking to altered people, and a lot of what they're feeling different frm their normal state sounds like how I feel differently from "normalcy"

 

I agree, life is meaningless without that rush, or that laid back couch-locked feeling.

 

If life was a dish, drugs would be the spice.

Too much spice gives you the shits though.