I have not felt my mom around until very recently.....Right after my mother just died, I felt my father around very strongly.....and it took almost one year to feel my mother around....Was she in detention or something? Not to make light of a very serious sad subject.....
sorry to hear about this. Please don't torment yourself about not having made amends. It's too bad that you couldn't be reconciled before she passed, but that's just not always in the cards. It's always hard to lose a loved one, but I think it is especially hard to lose a parent, and the younger you are when it happens, the harder it is.