My 21st Rotation!

ha ha, thanks Andy. I don't get it though.

 

I kind of know what you mean

 

hmmm, in other words
you like -confident- women
but if htey get pushy 'bout it, can be intimidating?

That's how I feel about chicks too
Hard to find some in that balance point though
(takes time ot learn to love/be confident in yourself too)

 

good ... so i'm not just dysfunctional in the brain ... I thought I had a chemical imbalance or somthing ... oh man ... the whole dating scene just isnt what I was made for ... I was made for festivals ... for music ... for art ... for expression ... I think I can live without being in a relationship.

 

I have no self confidence.

And when I do I tend to be a bit cocky.

Unfortunatley ...

It dosen't happen often though.

 

you probably just think that because you associate dating with boring dinners and responsibility and stuff........what if you met someone who was into all those things as well.........

But i know exactly what you mean.......i kind of stopped trying when i was 13..lol basically at the start of puberty lol.....

I try and make me self do social stuff i dont like........but trying for relationships is way to much work for my brain at the moment

 

Yeh i Have no self confidence or confidence in anything for that matter.........

The only thing I have confidence in is my brain so that makes a lot of people think im arrogant a lot of the time......which i dont THINK i am

 

I can go a while without a relationship
without even really thinking about one

but...
I wouldn't wanna be without a partner forever
I'd go bonkers
(plus I need the sex and I'm not a one-night stand kinda girl)



I don't get how you aren't at least somewhat self confident.
I mean... you're gorgeous and funny and intelligent, and you have such a freakin beautiful soul. We all battle with how much we like ourselves (admit it or not), but just try to focus on those positive, awesome, splendorific aspects of yourself

 

I gave up on girls in ... 10th grade ... I had a big mess with ex girlfriends, and current girlfriends. to much DRAMA. I like firnds. alot.

 

friends. i mean.

 

i left school going into my final year at the start of this year...........and im going to a party tonight which has everyone from my old school there.........and i ahve this feeling a lot of my old aquaintances are going to be real dicks to me........fuck friends lol

 

Kayleigh - thank you so much, those words really mean alot to me.

Sam - you dropped out of school?

 

yeh im still doing school work but.....at kind of a community college

Much more hippielike people there so its better........

as for this party tonight......Ive been worrying about this for weeks.....fucking anxiety

 

wear the red socks and the blue shirt

 

red socks a d blue shirt?

 

Samual ... if that's your name ... if not ... Sam ...

You need to Chillax brother. your cool, your smooth, your mellow.

You don't have to worry about ignorant folks from your old school. they don;t matter ... they mean nothing to you, at least they shouldn't. you really are a cool dude ... don't let people get to you. Show up and show them that you are more than what they ever could have thought you were.

 

thanks man........means a lot........your drunken words of wisdom are inspiring

 

call me Samwise Gamgee

 

to the party.

 

samwise gamgee?

fill me in here.