My Mental History.

As long as I am talking about the subject now, I have always had a very weak uring stream. Always, for a boy and man. I've noticed it all my life, and I'm sure others have in my life too. Because I've obviously had Cerebral Palsy all my life and was misdiagnosed. (Also, my urine sometimes smells very stale now. And I don't seem to be producing as much urine with that catheter I am using now as I thought I would. Something is clearly wrong with me. But my doctors claim I am fine. I don't have Cerebral Palsy, neuropathy, etc. But someone will have to pay for things like my medical care in my old age, and make sure I always have car. Like I said, I think it should be the people who allowed this all to happen to me.) And also not only was I neglected and denied help for it, but I was given those neuroleptic drugs, that people with Cerebral Palsy should never take unless clearly indicated. That Haldol might have even caused me brain damage in 1984. And it was never necessary with me. And yet I am still being forced to take it, and possibly secretly medicated with it. And no one will stop it, and no one seems to care. And that court continues to ignore me. And I did submit a petition to them twice now. But like I said, I am going to make sure that all the people in my life, all of them, that are responsible for my physical state now make sure I am not only always given the medical care I need, but that I always have a car. And that I am always independant too. And that I don't end up in a place like a group home, where I would lose even more medical consent and control of the situation, like I've said.

Because I also obviously have a little neuropathy in my right hand. Like I said, I expect all the people who were trying to take away my car since at least 2005 to make sure I always have a car and can drive. And that includes my legal guardian. He put me in danger, he knows some of my neighbors are very angry at me now. And he is my legal guardian. So he is required to do that, for my safety and welfare. Not just my independence, which is important too of course. If I lose use of my feet, I could always get a car with hand pedals. And if I ever lose use of my right hand, I could get a car with a steering wheel spinner. Steering wheel spinners allow drivers with one hand or arm to rotate the steering wheel with one hand. But their car often requires other special features like the turn signals and windshield wipers to be within easy reach, usually with extended levers or switches.

Also, my legal guardian won't pay for someone to clean my house and help me out anymore. He says it was too much of a bother. Partly because he finds it hard to hire someone who will work in Detroit. Now, some of the people he had doing that were just spying on me. Actually I wonder if all of them weren't. And I don't need someone to clean and help me out who does that too. But now I have do all the cleaning. I'm doing a good job of it. But it would be nice if someone could help me out with that. But now I am preoccupied with finding a new psychiatrist and dealing with that court, and all the ways they are making my life a living hell now. So someone to clean would help me out. (Like I said as legal guardian at least, he is required to do all these things for me, even though he doesn't.)

But that court continues to ignore me. No matter how I beg and plead with them and no matter how many times I submit a petition to them to have my case reviewed. So I guess I will have to keep fighting this for the rest of my life. And I will have to also just keep repeating those three things. That I have Cerebral Palsy, and it was obvious since I was a small child. That I was driven to suicide by people's extreme mental abuse, and because they made me believe I had no choice but to consider that option. I have never been suicidal even once in my life. And that people have tried to take away my ability to drive, even though I am an excellent driver and they knew what doing that would do to me, right from the start. But they still did it for over 20 years, and that still continues to go on now. It obviously will in the future too.

 

Also like I've said, I wonder if many, maybe even all of my problems, aren't due to the fact I live in Detroit. Mentally ill people in Detroit often have a history of violence. I think that is because of things in Detroit like poverty and lack of law enforcement. Plus violent mentally ill people, and really all mentally ill people, tend to end up in Detroit. Because they are usually not welcome in other nearby cities. I obviously don't have a history of violence or any other behavioral problems. But because I live in Detroit, maybe I am just treated the same as all the other mentally ill people living in Detroit. Plus I am affected by the mental care system in Detroit, and all the policies for dealing with mentally ill people in Detroit that the police and others use here.

Maybe I could move to another city someday. I would like it to be close by in area I am familiar with. But my new house will have to be large or at least meant for an average family. Like the one I am living in now. I will need a space for my two cats. They need to be kept in a separate area or they'd destroy the rest of the house. And I may need my house to be wheelchair accessible someday, with wide hallways and wide doorways. And I may need in-home care some day, from all the damage that court and others have done to me throughout the years. I would like to live in my current home as long as possible though. I am used to living here for many reasons, some of them just practical. And this is the home I grew up in too. But I still think a nearby city I've been thinking of for some time now might be a good option for all of that. And there is still very little crime there the last I heard. I was told the trust could never pay for something like that. But my legal guardian could. He can afford to live in a nearby affluent city.

 

Also I asked Michigan Democrats online how guardianship reform is going in Michigan. My therapist said reach out to your representative in Lansing, or someone like that, for that information. But I asked them about it twice. So they are obviously totally ignoring me. I also reached out to an organization that provides free legal aid for people in Michigan. They had a couple of week to respond, so they are totally ignoring me too. As I've told people, I think I've give those last people a couple of more days to reply. And if they don't, then they will be part of my case that I am submitting from now on. And make sure they face whatever legal, or at least ethical, consequences they can, for what they did to me. And then I'll expose them in the legal community, and make sure the world never forgets what they did to me. For how I reached out to them for help, and told them how desperate my situation is. And how people like them just played along, pretending they didn't even know what I was talking about. Even though I told them I know my name has been flagged and all of my information is on the computer screen in front of them even as we speak.

 

Anyways, to get lighthearted here for a moment, I was going to add. About my mental idiosyncrasies (I guess most or all of them are due to my Schizotypal Personality Disorder). I love seeing Christmas decorations, anytime of year. Is there anything wrong with that? I know when my father was hospitalized for mental illness the second time in 1997, my uncle came to our house. And he saw our Christmas tree was still up. It was Spring or Summer by then. And he said, you know we'll have to take that down now. I didn't say anything to him at the time. But you know, that tree (which was artificial BTW) was doing no harm. And that was what I loved about it at the time. It was Christmas all year round in my house that way.

Also you know we have a place like that in Michigan. Bronner's Christmas Wonderland store in Frankenmuth. It's Christmas all year round there too (except Christmas Day, when they're closed of course). People say the purpose of their store is that you only see it when you go to Frankenmuth, which is a resort town in Michigan. Once a year, and for most people in the Summertime. Otherwise you'd grow tired of seeing THAT much Christmas decorations. I thought they might be correct. But not with our Christmas tree around 1997. I always enjoyed seeing it. It was always Christmas in our house that way.

 

“Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and accordingly all experience hath shown, that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed.”

The above being from the Declaration of Independence 1776, by Thomas Jefferson of course. You know I always liked that part above and was even drawn to it around high school. Because I don't know if you know the whole story. Some of the people involved in the American Revolution, like the Sons of Liberty, were very radical. But some like Jefferson were more moderate and intellectual radicals. I always thought that was touching. I even thought in 1989 I might be Thomas Jefferson's reincarnation believe it or not. He and I were a lot alike and even sometimes thought I alike, I thought. I don't know though. If I'm not a genius, or my IQ is below normal, I can't be prodigy or even intelligent. I guess I could still be an intellectual, whatever that is. (And like I said, I can do things like write long, complex algebra equations, and moderately long and complex computer programs and calculus equations. But I still don't know what my exact intellectual status is.) But I always found that interesting, and thought of myself that way.

 

“All this talk of the Overseer, it's old superstitions.”
“I disagree. All the evidence indicates that the Overseer exists.”

From Star Trek the Next Generation, Who Watches the Watchers in 1989. I was talking to my therapist recently about that episode and quote. Riker is trying to talk rationally to Nuria, who is the leader of the very logical Mintakans. He is trying to explain to her that belief in supernatural things like an overseer is irrational and superstitious. But she replies, no. If all the evidence suggests one of those things must be true, then it must be. Astrology is nonsense. But even if you believed that all your life, but suddenly you find out every astrological reading you ever got was accurate. Or if you didn't believe in ghosts or miracles, but they clearly started happening in front of you. Or even if you didn't believe in fairies or elves, but now you see them dancing around in your backyard. What choice would you have? You have to conclude it all is true for some reason. Like when I found out people could read my mind apparently, they knew what I did the night before at home, my doctor was part of some worldwide conspiracy I was the center of starting July 8, 1989. Even though his telling me that led directly to my suicide attempt a week later. I was just going by the available information. I wasn't being paranoid or irrational. I was actually being very sensible under the circumstances, like Nuria.

 

I was also talking about the following recently. I was thinking, around 1990 I believe. They were telling the story of John F. Kennedy's funeral. And in that famous scene, John F. Kennedy, Jr. saluted as his father's casket passed by. They were interviewing one of the secret service agents who was guarding Mrs. Kennedy that day. And he said he taught John F. Kennedy, Jr. to do that. They were in church and little John F. Kennedy, Jr. was acting up. So Mrs. Kennedy had the secret service agent take John, Jr. to a back room to calm him down a little. And he taught him then. But I was thinking around that time though. Jacqueline Kennedy was one of the people who thought her husband's assassination might have been the work of the government. Maybe even the secret service. For all she knew, the one she had take him to the back room to calm him a little might have been the one who did it. But she still trusted him with her child. But then I paused and thought, there was really no reason why she shouldn't have trusted him. Even if he was responsible for her husband's assassination, at that moment he was under orders to protect John, Jr. So really at that moment he was the most safe with that agent.

That's the thing about actions planned at the top by governments. People at the bottom are not responsible for those actions, even if they are wrong. Not unless those government workers or agents go rogue. (But I think that only really happens in James Bond movies.) But on the other hand, there really is no way to escape a government if they are harming you or exploiting you in some way. Because where could you go?

 

Also, this next one might be important. I seem to give off a lot of steam, or condensed water vapor, wherever I am. More the average person it seems. For example when a group of people are sitting by a window in the wintertime, my section of the window is always covered with the most water vapor. Usually it is the only section of the window covered with water vapor. Does that mean anything? It doesn't mean anything to me. But it might to a doctor.

I think this should be part of my case and investigated. It might be important. It might even have something to do with my Cerebral Palsy. You never know.

 

It's strange. When I was a child I found out all my friends were being forced to play with me. But I liked that idea. It gave me a way of enforcing their obligation to play with me. And it gave me a way of dealing with situations when they ignored me, avoided me or even mistreated me. Others would find it humiliating, but like I said I thought it was a good idea. And now maybe keeping my legal guardian in that position might be a good idea. I want more rights than I have now, I want full medical consent and I want the secrecy to end. But he could never abandon me, or dump me like he's been trying to do for about 15 years now. And he'd have to make sure I had everything I needed. Everything, and always. Maybe that's all a good idea.

Because like a doctor once told me. Sometimes the quality of mercy is strain'd.

 

I basically stayed in bed all day yesterday. And my mouth is still very unusually dry too. Something is very wrong and something is happening that wasn't happening before.

I also am supposed to go to find a new psychiatrist now since I was too late for my Thursday appointment again. And they have to call me back, which they haven't yet. So I am going to play phone tag with them for a while. And don't know where all that is going to go. It's getting harder and harder to be on time now, probably because I am older and probably due to the permanent damage that court did to me with those unnecessary neuroleptic drugs they forced me to take for 35 years. And being all doped up now, if I am, probably isn't going to help. Plus I really don't know if there is any point to going to there now anyways. Going there isn't really going to accomplish anything or change anything as far as I know.

 

Google AI Overview

Symptoms of cerebral palsy (CP) include motor impairments, speech and learning difficulties, and seizures.

Motor impairments.
Delayed motor skills, like sitting, crawling, or walking

Weak arms or legs, Poor coordination, Stiff or floppy muscles, Jerky movements, Uncontrolled movements, Walking on tiptoes, Abnormal gait, Speech and learning difficulties, Delays in speech development, Difficulty speaking, Difficulty with precise movements, like writing or buttoning a shirt, Learning disabilities

Seizures.
Seizures can occur early in life or years after brain damage. About a third of people with CP experience seizures.

Other symptoms.
Vision problems, Hearing problems, Swallowing problems, Drooling, Eating and digestion issues, Bowel and bladder problems, Bone abnormalities, like scoliosis or hip dysplasia

CP is a chronic condition that affects the brain and nervous system. It's caused by a disturbance to the developing brain, which can happen before, during, or after birth. There's no cure, but treatments can help improve symptoms. The range and intensity of symptoms varies widely from person to person.

Okay, that all seems to describe me above perfectly. All of it. So I am still confused. My doctors are all still denying I have Cerebral Palsy. Is that because I really don't? Because only they would know. I am not a doctor and never said I was. And is this really all about mental deficiency? Because that's not an issue for me. People who were mentally handicapped bothered me more when I was a little child. But the older I got the less it bothered me. And really, since 1991, I just assumed I was probably mentally handicapped anyways. So I don't see why that would be an issue even. The only thing I know is that I am not THAT mentally handicapped. IOW, as mentally handicapped as some people seem to think. I'd say if I am, I'm probably mildly or borderline. But people in my neighborhood think I can't tie my own shoes or recite the alphabet. That beggar thought I was too low in intelligence to know who shoveled my snow. Even when I often was the one who just did it. And my recent psychiatrist started acting around 2004 like he thought I could barely read. I think I read on the upper grade school, or high school level at least.

And the police thought I was too mentally handicapped to drive. Even if I have some intellectual impairment, I just don't think that is true. I never did. I just wondered starting around 1991 if mentally handicapped people were even allowed to drive in Michigan. They can. Physically and mentally handicapped people have the same rights everyone else does, until the opposite is proven. Yet the way that the police act towards me even now sometimes, I get the impression that there might be something more to that. But even they seem to have an exaggerated view of how low my intelligence is. They wonder if I should be driving at all. And they treat me like a child, saying things like I would be so much happier without a car. When in reality it would destroy my life. I'd lose everything if that happened. What is that all about?

And "birth trauma". That is one of the causes. One of my doctors said birth trauma caused my Cerebral Palsy when he told me in 2011. I looked it up. Birth trauma doesn't mean lack of oxygen. It means there was an injury to my head when I was born. That doesn't seem likely, but I don't know. I was born in a very good hospital. One of the best ones in the area at the time. But I know my aunt used to say that the nurses at that hospital seemed indifferent and not to care. And all my life I actually did wonder if my problems weren't caused by the fact one of the nurses there dropped me on the head in the neonatal unit. That's ironic if that is one of the causes of Cerebral Palsy.

Also my real diagnosis, whatever it is, has my legal guardian racked with guilt. Why? Because I am misdiagnosed? Or because I am secretly, very mentally handicapped? Like they told me at that hospital in 1989? Because like I said, I'd have no problem with that. I could accept it. I just think I am highly functional. Maybe borderline or mildly mentally impaired. I can certainly tie my shoes and read. Or is there more to being mildly mentally impaired that I thought? Can you be that functional and still be mildly intellectually impaired? Maybe even when you're moderately impaired? Because like I said, I'd have no problem with it either way. I just want people in my life to stop lying to me and to stop deceiving me.

 

Like I said, I obviously have a little neuropathy and nerve damage in my right hand. Now, after 20 years of fighting the injustice of having my car taken away when I am an excellent driver, desperately need a car and did nothing wrong, it could just happen for that reason. I could lose use of my feet and hands. That is outrageous. The people responsible for all that are going to make sure I always have a car. I'll make sure that happens if I have to dedicate the rest of my life to it. That is part of my official claim now too. And I will start submitting that in my monthly claim to that court. And there's something going on with my bladder, and possibly kidneys too. My doctors are a little vague on what the tests may or may not show. The incomplete emptying of my bladder all my life due to my Cerebral Palsy has left my bladder walls thin and rubbery. And my urine sometimes smells very stale. This damage too could have been prevented long ago. But again, it never was. I'm going to need lifelong care which will be complicated by my Cerebral Palsy. And I'm not letting anyone put me in a group home, or even an old age home if I can help it. I'd be at the mercy of whatever stupid, reckless thing that court is doing at that moment.

And speaking of my official claim, people are are still ignoring me, especially one group I recently reached out for help to. That is outrageous too. I reach out for help, I tell people my life and safety are at risk, and then they act silly and play along like my attorney did when this all began in the Summer of 1992 at that court. That is part of my official claim. I have right to legal counsel, I have a right to help and assistance, and people shouldn't act silly, play along and treat me like a child when I tell them my life and safety are in danger and plead for their help. And they shouldn't ignore me either. I'll give them a little more time to respond. And then I will seek whatever legal or ethical action I can against them. And I'll spend the rest of my life exposing them in the legal community too, for what they did to me.

 

Anyways, the information I am giving now applies to everyone. Because I have seen people do this parlor trick before. They do it in mental health settings. They may do it in old age homes and prisons too. I don't know. I call it the mind reading trick. It just involves having information the other people didn't think you could have. That could be done a number of ways. (Not by true mind reading, like with a EEG type scan, especially from a distance. But I honestly don't know about that last one.)

One way to have information you didn't know the other person had is to use trigger words. The street magician David Blaine did that once as he shuffled cards quickly from one hand to the other. (BTW, what is that called? Shuffling cards quickly from one hand to the other? So I don't have to keep saying that over and over again when I tell people this.) You didn't even see him do it, pause on that one card. But he did. And that's how he appeared to read the home viewers' minds. Or when you do it in a sentence where the word itself in the sentence seems trivial or unimportant. Like the example I already gave. "George Washington was THE first president of the United States". See what I jsut did there? You would never think the word "the" is the important word there. Then (and I've seen this done in mental health settings) they pause, their eyes widen and they look around. And they say, "Hey, anyone know the origin of the word 'the'?"

Also the Houdini Code is ingenious. I first heard of it in a book at age 12. It involves the base-26 number system. So you have a lot of possible combinations, with two-letter pairs. (You could use the alphabet alone itself, using something called Caesar cipher. Every letter in Caesar cipher just represents another letter. Usually every other or every third letter. But that doesn't give you the same amount of possibilities as the base-26 number system. And so the words you have to make up are harder to think up and sound weirder. With the base-26 number system a letter can be represented by two or more letter combinations too. Like I said, in the Houdini Code Rosabelle means "believe". Also, Rosabelle was Bess Houdini's favorite song.)

You can also use ear piece and vibrating phones to mean something to the person. During the American Revolution, a woman was giving message to the colonists by the color of the clothing she hung on her clothing line. Or maybe everytime someone hears a crash in the other room, or everytime the TV set is turned a certain station (and it's only the staff that allowed to change the channel) that might mean something. Or, if everyone involved is following a prearranged script they all memorized the night before (they used to do that to me in that grade school for some unknown reason, I now realize). Or even a flow chart that they all have to follow depending on what the patients say or what happens, that would work.

Lot's of possibilities there. I agree that misleading people is sometimes justified or unavoidable. But only rarely and only when absolutely necessary. Especially when it is used for no other reason than to harm.

 

I also want to make clear, and I told my therapist this recently too. The neuropathy and nerve damage in feet and hand aren't getting better obviously. They might even be getting worse. There's the real possibility I could lose my ability to drive some day that way. But I won't let that happen. All the people who have been trying to take my car away from me for over twenty years (maybe even longer) will make sure that I always have a car. For as long as possible. I'll see to it if it's the last thing I do on earth. My neighbors, the police, that paramedic, my former psychiatrist too. And my legal guardian and that court for sure. After all the harm and damage they did to me over the years. With the mismanagement of my case and medicines I didn't even need, medicines someone like me with Cerebral Palsy should have never been taking to begin with. They'll make sure I always have a car with hand pedals if I need it, and a wheel spinner too if necessary. (And I better be able to reach my legal guardian on the phone or by text or email when I need one. That's all I can say.) And now that court might be secretly doping me up, making the situation worse. And I reached out at the end of January to a group that provides free legal aid. And they are still ignoring me. And I think they are now part of my legal case. And I think they should face whatever ethical penalties they have coming too. For ignoring me, for not helping me, for denying me access to the legal system and for just playing along when I beg them for help.

I also wonder if there aren't any criminal charges that could me here. I'm serious. I just looked it up. And in Michigan, that statute is Act 328, Section 750.85 talks about mental torture, as well as physical. It would be too late to charge that hospital now. But as I said, an incident like that just happened recently. Like even 3 years ago perhaps. And I told me therapist to look into that, as I said.

 

As I've said, that nonsense about taking away my car and ability to drive began by 2005, really for no reason at all. Although I had just attempted suicide, due the emotional abuse and threats I had be subjected to since childhood and especially starting in 1989. So that might have had something to do with it. But like the other things then, it was a horrible, horrible threat. It was totally unnecessary. And it continued for many, many years. And when I tried to reason with people, instead of listening to me they just got more silly. One policeman told me that actually people are much more happy that way, when he takes their driver's license away from them. And even about 10 years ago, my former psychiatrist was still talking about it. I told him I lived alone by then. How would go to all my doctors? How would even shop or take care of my most basic needs? He said well, you legal guardian could just be your chauffeur then. I can't rely on my legal guardian in an emergency. I think I will probably just keep him as my legal guardian. What choice do I have now? I am permanently damaged now. And my aging process, along with the permanent damage people did to me (that they all knew about 20 years ago even) is going to be complicated by my Cerebral Palsy. As my legal guardian, he will never be able to do that, take away my car. And BTW, he was one of the strongest advocates for that too, taking away my car. (Like I said, even though he couldn't have seriously believed I could live that way, and that then he would be my chauffeur.) But keeping him on as legal guardian would give me rights, and make sure that he and others will never be able to do that to me again. And they will always makes sure I have a car. Especially now that the damage is permanent and there is a real danger I could lose my ability to drive for that reason.

Also like I said, that one doctor thought I'd be too embarrassed to talk about the subject of driving. Because perhaps I was mentally handicapped and people would think I shouldn't be driving, even though I am a very good driver. Not at all. That, my driving and how people were trying to deny me that right for over 20 years, will always be the main part of my argument of how my rights as a patient were abused. Everywhere I go I will bring it up now, so people never forget. That and how the people in my life drove to consider suicide since a child. There was never any other reason, because I am not suicidal. And my Cerebral Palsy and how it was obvious to the doctors, and teachers and others in my life, that I had it since the time I could walk. That and many, many other symptoms doctors, teachers and others have noticed about me for year.

 

Yeah, I was telling my doctor recently that it takes me a very long time to clean up after I go number 2. Up to 30 minutes at least. He seemed to confirm that is due to my Cerebral Palsy, but I am handling the problem well. But I've had that problem all my life. I used to stick a wad of toilet tissue up there to deal with it. I told my mother about that, and at least one doctor noticed that when I was in high school. That same doctor noticed that I put in a wash cloth in my underpants because I leaked a lot after going number one. He told my mother he thought it might have something to do with my prostrate. And I was only 17 then.

And I used to eat my apple by the teacher's desk in grade school. Because it takes me long to eat. It's hard for me to swallow. It always has been. The kids used to tease me about that. So there must be people alive now who remember that. And in grade school in health class the teacher said involuntary muscles never get tired. I told her that my lungs sure feel tired sometimes. She got annoyed and told me to be quiet. And I have been physically weak all my life. One my best friends used to show the other boys how easily he could defeat me at arm wrestling. He didn't even have to strain or try, he showed them. Which I found odd. But it wasn't. I have had Cerebral Palsy and weakness in all my limbs all my life. The way I walked and the way I talked, my performance in gym class. I could never do a pull-up in gym class or grade school in high school. Not even one, no matter how hard I tried. And everyone could do at least one. I used to walk on balls of my feet. With my legs turned out like I was doing the Charleston. Someone must have noticed this, many people even.

There were many, many symptoms like that since the time I could walk. And I always had good doctors and went to the best schools. Someone must have noticed something. I think that should all be investigated. And I will need special care for the rest of my life, especially with the permanent damage that that court did to me. And I won't let them put me in group home ever, or any other place I don't absolutely have to. How could I? Something has to be done about all of this. And I think it starts by holding people accountable. Accountable for what they did to me, and accountable for what they are doing to me now.

 

Anyways, if I haven't made clear by now. Taking away my car was just obviously a form of psychological abuse. And I thought from the start that was no accident either. It was always meant to be that. Who started it, I don't know. It seems to involve many people. All my doctors, paramedics and police in other cities and counties, my neighbors and many people I really never met and don't know. And it all started around the early 2000s like I said. I've been driving since 1989. There was nothing involving my driving that began in the early 2000s. No incident on the road or involving my car, and nothing involving my driving ability either. The timing of it and the way it happened seemed to suggest it had something to do with my suicide attempt in early 2004 actually. But it was psychological abuse plain and simple, it was always very unnecessary and very wrong, it was obviously done to hurt me and threaten me. And no matter how I begged, people never stopped doing it. Or they promised me they stopped and would never bring it up again. But then suddenly they would bring it up again. A couple weeks or even a couple of years later, when I least suspected it.

Anyways, that is going be central to my patient's rights abuse claim from now on. And the reason why I want my status of guardianship reviewed. (I might have no option but to accept my legal guardian as my legal guardian. I am getting much older and damage the court and others did to me is going to catch up with me some day.) Plus my guardian, like I said, is of the most vocal advocates of taking my car away from me. He always has been. He says the insurance costs too much, even though he lives in a rich suburb and vacations to Europe often. And my last psychiatrist said he could just be my chauffeur then. Even though I can't rely on him even in an emergency. I might have to keep him as guardian though. What choice do I have now? But I want full medical consent, I want full knowledge of everything in my life. And I want my guardian watched at all times. Because he leaves me with no other choice. And then, he can remain as guardian that way of course.

Yes, that and the other two talking points. I was driven to suicide by the extreme psychological abuse of the people in my life, and their horrible threats. There was no other reason. And they all knew exactly what they were doing at the time. From my childhood on. And, like I said, they still do it. Like just recently, like I said. Maybe a couple of years ago even. And I obviously have Cerebral Palsy. The way I walked, my physical and other symptoms. Just the things there are records of that I did and said. Like eating my apple by my teacher's desk in grade school because it's hard for me to swallow. And the problems with incomplete emptying of my bowel and bladder, that I have been complaining about since at least age 9. I need the full status of Cerebral Palsy now. Because I will need special care due to the damage that court did to me. And yet they just continue to ignore me. Ignore me and tease me and have everyone play along with this like it's all a big joke.

 

Also, I was just in communications with my therapist tonight. And I am definitely going to press in my case for a policy change. In Michigan where I live, and in Detroit where my home is. People shouldn't be able to harass people with mental and physical handicaps even if they think those groups shouldn't be driving. That's for Lansing, our state capital, to decide. Not the public, or even the police or first responders. And if someone calls up the police asking to have their neighbor's license revoked, when he or she is just minding their own business, and really doing nothing wrong. They shouldn't go along with that, ever.

And I was surprised to learn recently that most drivers in Detroit don't even bother to get car insurance. That's a felony in Michigan, driving without insurance. And I've always had the best insurance. Look it up. Plus I was telling my therapist, and others, tonight. When someone calls the police, the phone call immediately triggers caller ID. And the police know right away if they are talking to someone with no insurance or a suspended license. Or anything else for that matter. Like I was telling my therapist recently, the lady next door was telling us she didn't even bother to renew her driver's license anymore. She said she couldn't afford it. And the police were going along with all of that?

Well I find all of that outrageous. And I have been silent too long. But no longer now. And I am going to press for change. Not just in my life, but with the laws in Michigan. And just the official policy for how the authorities handle situations like the ones above I just described. I will keep fighting for it the rest of my life. Until something happens. Because they may have permanently damaged me physically. But I won't let them get away with doing that to anyone else.

 

Another thing I can't figure out. One of my doctors told me in 2011 an EEG showed I have Cerebral Palsy, probably due to "birth trauma". I thought for years he meant lack of oxygen, which I did have at birth. My mother was in labor for 12 hours. But no, I looked it up recently. Birth trauma means physical trauma.

Now, I was born at a very nice hospital. One of the nicest ones in Detroit at the time. But there is no record of physical trauma. At least that I know of. All I know is my aunt said those nurses in the neonatal unit were very rude and obnoxious. And they were manhandling all the babies there that were entrusted to their care. And for years I half seriously thought maybe one of them dropped me on my head when no one was looking. Is that what really happened then? How bizarre. And how horrible too. I wonder if she did that with any other babies there in that unit when no one was looking.

 

dropping a baby on its head and cerebral palsy?

Google AI Overview

Dropping a baby on its head can potentially lead to cerebral palsy, as a significant head injury to an infant can cause brain damage, which is a primary cause of this condition, especially if the injury occurs during or shortly after birth when the brain is still developing; however, not every head injury will result in cerebral palsy, and the severity of the injury and the specific circumstances would play a major role in the outcome.

Key points to remember:

Brain damage during infancy:
A traumatic brain injury, like dropping a baby on its head, can damage delicate brain tissue, potentially leading to developmental issues including cerebral palsy.

Critical developmental stage:
The brain is particularly vulnerable during the early stages of life, making injuries during this period potentially more severe.

Severity of the injury:
The impact force and the area of the head affected by the drop can determine the extent of brain damage and the likelihood of developing cerebral palsy.

Medical attention is crucial:
If a baby is dropped on its head, immediate medical evaluation is essential to assess the severity of the injury and receive appropriate treatment.

"On the other hand, although they’re rare, traumatic brain injuries do occur during childbirth, often as the result of medical negligence or carelessness that causes external trauma, such as excessive pressure to the head.

An example of this would be a doctor who uses a birthing tool, such as forceps or a vacuum extraction tool, with too much force, or uses it improperly, which can cause serious damage to a newborn’s sensitive head. Another example, although extremely rare, is when an infant is dropped by a physician or nurse. Head injuries to an infant can lead to a number of conditions, including cerebral palsy..."

Can Cerebral Palsy Be Caused by a Head Injury? | Cerebral Palsy Family Network