not all there

I'm afraid I'm not brilliant at anything. I can sketch strange pictures during boring meetings, but nothing that will end up in a museum. I agree that if I must learn something (as in past jobs in America), I will be able to learn them. Unfortunately, I can get away with a degree of laziness here, though it's uncomfortable at times. What are you brilliant at?

 

Just don't tell me the kid is also your age.
hahaha why i am asking this?
Because I had a friend who had a "girfriend" his moms age and she had a son just one year younger than him. Boy, that guy was crazy and his all family.
He always said its perfect, his mom and girfriend are very good friends and he loves not to let that kid to go out untill he finishes his homework. I used to laugh to tears with all those guys! But, what is the most important, they were all, the whole bunch, so happy and always smiling, no matter how everybody think they they are completely nuts not just crazy.

 

She is a brilliant mother and wife plus so many more things!
And........I love her so much!!!!


She also rolls such a beautifull joints! LSD ASAP will you roll one when I come back from work? Please......

 

haha i laughed hysterically at that. nah she is 18 im 19. the child is 6 months. its a bit much for me to handle.

 

Brilliant indeed. What you say is beautiful. Do you think joint rolling is an art or a science?

 

Maybe brilliant is not the word that we can both agree on. I'm brilliant in everything I choose to do to bring smiles back otherwise I wouldn't bother doing it at all, isn't it? Action comes from love and if it's not from love than it's just hard work and hard work can kill you isn't it?
If you want it in a museum maybe you should think of fame? I mean look at Picaso I personally don't like his paintings but he's famous. As I could see by now fame rarely comes from talent.

 

Sorry guys have to go. I have a job to do. Oh, no let me correct myself. Cause it comes from love and I must put the smile back than it's not a job it's a pleasure!
Love you all!!!!!

 

Rolling a joint is a technical art done in the name of science to change the fiction to reality!

 

Acid is not going to fix everything, I would get that idea out of your mind right now.

There are a lot of things that can effect sex drive, it could just be as simple as your body is of balance chemically. Eat, drink, and sleep well, take good care of your body and it will probably come back.

Or maybe you just are not that into her anymore?

 

i am brilliant at things but im not brilliant at showing it.

some people show how brilliant they are at things but the people around them are blind.

some people arent brilliant but are characterised by something their peers enjoy brilliantly.

some people are brilliant at seeming brilliant.

what sort of question is it 'what are you brilliant at?'

no person could answer it because it is subjective, but if a person was brilliant, do you think they would meet their own standards of brilliance?

typically: no.

 

peter, i think the answer you seek lies not in the coherence of older trippers but their tendancy to participate in internet discussion boards.

 

but i would also suggest that you psychfans do not suppose that an expanded mind has the same proficiency as a constricted mind - a constricted mind will be more proficient at those things within its constrictions, in general. an expanded mind may be considered a benefit when looking from within the confined mind. but a simple and rigid path can become the one solice to a mind with no bounds.
what im trying to say is: i dont think you should all be so quick to defy peters suggestion that tripping for many years can reduce a person's capability and motivation to produce coherent expressions in cold hard worlds.

 

Was there once a time when you were coherent yourself?

 

there is nothing wrong with his coherancy... hmmm mine however.

but being 'not all there' isnt really alot of fun. mine is nothing, but id talk to people then say goodbye to people, then as theyve gone id think, huh, theyve gone and i was just in this auto-pilot i wasnt there it was all just zombie words and now theyve gone and i just realised and didnt get to say goodbye in a withit way.

are drugs that amazing that its worth leading a life of psychdelics and perhaps actually get less out of it than if you hadnt. i mean i recently befriended some older trippers the age of 40. and they done alot of acid when they were young, and now they just smoke weed and take magic mushrooms every weekend. and well, i wouldnt say there doing to well. they are poor and my gf asked him how long its been since he had sex and he said 7 years. they are brothers that live together. if thats the psychdelic lifestyle maybe living a life of psyedelics isnt living a life like what psychdelics make you think your living. its just a trip in your mind.

taking these drugs its very very easy to get carried down the path where you think what your doing is right, that your discoverying so many amazing things. iv been there ofcourse. but now i dont know, maybe they are just trips.
i dont know.

 

peter popper, I just tell people I'm autistic, asperger's syndrome
Which I am.... but ya, most people seem to reinforce a notion that "im not all here"
but really I never have been

Also, they are just trips in your brain... you have to figure out what to do with your brain though. Basically figuring out what LSD is, is when you figure out what you are. All the psychedellic writers in all their attempts to write, define and explain what LSD is or mushrooms. All they are really doing is explaining their own inner subjectivity. Anything Leary, Mckenna, Huxley or whoever wrote... it's merely an example that you can utilize to get a slight concept of what direction you might want to head. But psychedellics are completely undeciphered things. No one knows what they are or what they do. People only know what they themselves as humans are and what they themselves as humans do. What psychedellics actually are is just too damn weird to english... I mean even the way you english it is actually part of the answer itself. And there is a level which you just have to admit, you can never even comprehend it, that it's so incomprehensible that really no writer ever has managed to get even a slightest bit of metaphorical context to even aim at it. You must simply interact with it on good faith of love.

Also I have run in autopilot mode in some very public open places. I quite literally at times get to a level where all I am doing is forming my visuals into geometric forms and structures and then describing my subjective interpretation of the visual to people. Which the psychic energy of people alter the visuals, so my response relies upon visual interpretation of percieved energy. Which you might wonder 'can you even function like that?'. Yes I've met many great people and had many long talks with them. I mean of course they might be giving me a bit of leniacy because I am, tripping some crazy amount of balls, but I'm just saying, whatever your 'autopilot' mode is. Don't be afraid of the thing, grab onto it, you can restructure and reshape unconcious personality habits so that you can be presentable and intelligable at all levels of flying through hyperspace. This is in fact what people once called 'channeling'.

 

what if it was much worse. what if lsd left you in a state of complete terror. all the time. i mean real terror. to the point you had to kill yourself. it disturbed you so much. iv had a few feelings of surreal terror in bed at night from i guess terror trips. it seems easy to imagine just how bad bad an lsd trip can get and leave you in a state of frightened disturebed skizophrenia type thing. things chasing you.
iv brushed off any frightnening experiences from trips.
tho what about smoking weed? what are your thoughts if weed induces terror and frightening imagery

i dont know why im talkin lsd down so much after just a few months ago saying how it wasnt a drug but a tool one of the greatest discoveries in the history of man. funny how things change.

 

It's amazing how powerful mind is. What about that one: "What you think of yourself is what you are?" You have a story in your head about youself and according to that story is how you are going to behave, talk, walk, present yourself to the outside world.
If you were ok before I don't see a reason why not to be ok now. Those synapses in the brain still exist you just have to fire them again.
Auto-pilot for me existed only in times when my mind was busy so much thinking about things from past or future. Only then I was not able to concetrate on what is going on right now. I'm not saying you shouldn't think about past or future but there is the time and a place for that.

 

I think you're both coherent enough, I was only being half- serious. I ought to have stuck a little next to my snarky comment. Really, though Peter, you sound reckless, and I can relate to that. I've been lucky, and have only been institutionalized and arrested a handful of times, none of which is on my permanent record. Maybe you will be lucky too.
It sounds weird, but maybe try spreading things around a bit, for example, instead of taking acid every three days for a month, take some acid, then some Xanax, then a vacation to somewhere foreign (always trippy), then some mushroooms, ketamine, whatever. If one girl isn't doing it for you, find another one, or try two! Now I'll sit back and wait for Soaringeagle to swoop down and trash my advice.

 

haha, I hear his eagle call now.. c-karrrr c-karrrrr!!