One of those Getting to know you threads lol

question- i'm on 30-40 mg of valium daily, plus i smoke about n 1/8th of kind bud a day, and ironically we usually get sativa weed up her mostly so it does have a good balance of the cbd to which you are referring i would believe- do you believe that's a normal amount of valium for someone to be taking , along with the extensive amount of pot, along with the topamax, just to keep my head barely above water, and i STILL cant hold a job and function even on this level of meds, i can just take care of myself but nothing else- and may I ask, do you you use opiates recreationally or for physical pain?

 

Indica has more CBD actually...

But, I used to take a large benzo dose. It is just necessary at some points in life. You will lower it some day. Don't worry about worrying haha. Just know that, for the moment, you need a lot of medicinal support, but some day, when things calm down, you can bring that dose down.

 

this damn piece of crap computer!! i wrote a whole response to you and it erased it! basiclly i wanted to thank you bec i never knew INDICA had more CBD, and IRONICLLY INIDICA or a blend that favors indica is by FAR my fav and i feel it lasts longer- but thank you for your reassurance on the valium!! You have been such a wonderful support!

 

i just had to write to you and tell you Oh the irony- i just picked up a half,and like i said I never know what speciically i'm getting, but here my friend, coincidentallhy, says to me "got a surprise for ya- straight up Indica nuggets"- that hasn't been around in ages, it just sucks cause next week by the time I reup it prob be gone, but oh by i'm enjoy the rest of my day!

 

by the way, is there a way to email or send private messages , or are you and open book about schizoaffective disorder? I know very little about that disorder and I would love to learn more- do you fine the medications you have effective for it? I feel like I could write a book on how horrible the Mental Health Care System is, and it's terrible how little awareness there is of it! We really haven't progressed too far beyond One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest, aside from the lobotomies and permanent mental insititutions!

You MUST see or read the movie based on the Incredible book Running with Scissors if you've ever have a mental health problem and a horrific therapist or psychiatrist!

 

Sorry for not checking the threads yesterday. I was busy and had to take my dog to the vet (he is fine...).

I am glad I can lend some support to you that is based both on experience (being a drugged-out Bipolar-er) as well as science (given my knowledge on psychopharmacology). Feel free to ask me any questions regarding my treatment or past experiences. Considering this is an internet forum and I have never posted my face, I don't care what people think of me. Read my Blog entries (on this site) to gain some more perspective, especially since some of the entries were written in hard times.

You can send a private message. Click on my username above my avatar, and the option should be there. Use that if there is some question you would rather only have another crazy person read (just kidding- I don't think we are crazy, just unfortunate in our genetic disposition).

I will look into that movie you mentioned as well as the book. I have had so many bad therapist stories, I could probably write my own book. It is weird how it seems the psychiatrists (ie doctors) seem to be exponentially more STABLE and mentally healthy themselves, compared with psychologists/therapists, who always seem like nut-cases to me. I wish I could find a therapist who wasn't nuts themselves, you know!!

Enjoy that indica strain while it is around! Hopefully PA will allow medical Cannabis in the coming years. If you lived in California, you wouldn't have to be secretive or feel 'bad' that Cannabis works as a medicine for you. I mean, for me, I am lucky the stimulants worked and that THEY are legal (I mean, dextro-amphetamine IS a hard drug). Hopefully, Cannabis will become schedule II or something. But, honestly, I never felt quite "normal" until I started taking opioids regularly. The D-amphetamine was/is WAY better than the SSRIS or whatever, but still didn't make me genuinely happy- just phony happy.

 

Well what perfect timin for your reply- I just got back from therapy-my parents allowance is not enough to support my pot habit while im currently out of work - not even close- and my therapist wants me to be FREAKING DAVE CHAPELLE AND GO TO DETOX AND INPATIENT REHAB FOR POT- I'LL RIGHTFULLY GET BEAT THE FUCK UP BY ALL THE BOB SAGGOTS IN REHAB WITH ME!! lololol!!
Etkearne, I have tried on several occaisons to quit marijuana - the longest for 2 1/2 months, and each time at that point thins get so bad to a breakin point where i have a pscychotic episode and am either hospitalized or attempt suicide. However the combination of the Topamamx, Valium, My Lybrel Birth Control (I pave PreMenstrualDysforicDisorder too and this birth control is really helping me, AND POT have: (PLEASE NOTE ITS THE COMBINATION OF ALL FOUR THAT SEEM TO BE WORKING WELL)

Controlled all my Psychotic Breakdowns

Controlled my anxiety and assisted in my agoraphobia

Calmed my severe OCD Symptoms

Help me achieve an ability to rationalize in interpersonal relatilonships

No urge to self harrm

so, let's say I can't afford pot for a few months, what the FUCK do I ask my psychiatrist for?? Pot is so unique- and the opiate experience was exquisite but i dont exactly think psychiatrists perscribe oxycodone for depression and anxiety lol!

 

oh and PA will be the LAST STATE EVER to allow medicinal mary jane- we even have the sternest liquor laws, although it doesnt affect me much bc i don't drink much - but like i barely have anyone to even smoke with

 

Damn. That pisses me off to hear about that ass therapist you are 'dealing with.' what a prick! Clearly he/she has no empathy or the ability to put themselves in your shoes at ALL!

As for meds, give me a couple of hours to think up something, as I am in the middle of something now but want to give a quality reply.

 

You're a doll- taking all the time you need!! I'm just puffin on my Indica and watching movies, oh, and same with you on the PM- i'm still tryin to figure out the technical difficulties of this site

all i can tell you is that uppers & me = no no - I am severely alleric to wellbutrin & abilify. I cannot function on antipsychotics- they do NOTHIN for me-and Ive been on nearly every conventional drug out there- finally can manae on topamax, valium & pot, and now I won't be able to afford the pot- I need to replace it with a high but the only other thing that gives me the same positive effects and AFTEREFFECTS as pot are opiates!

 

Oh and if there are ANY links on oxycodone or opiate substances being used both for depression or anxiety or PTSD that would be great because I could show themto my psychiatrist-he realllllly wants me off pot bc of legal worries, so what do I say to my doc to persade him for a low grade oxycodone or opiate of sort to replace 420 if they have been the ONLYthings that control all the above mentioned issues I have, including my ;ptsd- and of course Id ask for roxy in smaller doses lol- plus he knows i do not drink.

Thoughts from anyone? Oh and like I said take your time gettin back to me etkerarne,Ill b at myhouse chillin all day-no rush!

 

severine u are almost close enough to delaware to maybe see the same dr. that ETK sees, lol......just saying.....if he is worth the drive, and it will help you....if it were me and the last guy was a dick, i would mosdef make the drive, every other month or so ...

 

yeah cause he's already in the philly area! Usuallly he listens to me, and he has seen how unraveled I get without pot and one thing he is pretty obedient- should I ask him for a perscription for Roxy to replace valium & pot until I have the $ to afford pot again since I'm off work right now and can't afford it (but my pills are covered by insurance so my parents pay for those) - think he will go for that? I don't have any history of addiction (aside from the LOL "marijuana")

 

but if not fuck that noise delaware clear your roads and fasten your seatbelts, here I come LOL!!

 

Id be careful of who you share personal information with here.. Many back stabbers. Dont let the Hippie thing fool you.. 20% the people here are cool..

 

oh god thanks for the heads up! I'm just so worried b/c i just don't what the hell I'm going to do if I have to quit pot indefinately, I'm majorly stressed...

 

nah, most of the main characters in the opiate world of the forums are cool....we're chill like that, lol

 

Do you think what I'm suggesting is reasonable and rational? Roxy in exchange for valium and pot? do you think my psychiatrist will say yes? lol!

 

but you live in PA, there is no Medical marijuana..
Im a veteran, Id get ton of pain pills., but anxiety meds, not many at all.. So I stopped going there -VA- a few months ago, didnt even see my new Psych doctor in person yet and they gave me 30 atavans.. upon recommendations , fuck the VA. in PA..

 

PA is horrible- they are the WORST- that's what i mean, since I can't get it medicinallly here, I;m gonna have to switch to something pharmceuticilly more hard core- well, I;m waitin to hear back fromy my psychitritris- you know he loves turtles- i shoul be like "yo motherfucker I will hook you up with a GALAPAGOS ISLAND TURTLE is you write me script for whatever i want LOL!)