opiate lounge

Relax, im just being dramatic. I'm not addicted, im in love!

 

...lol

 

She gets back into town sometime within the next 7 days. i have never been more excited in my life. she is my everything, my sole reason to live.

I miss the way she tastes, the way she smells, the feeling i have when im around her; its like a mixture of bliss empathy and joy is flowing in my veins.

A real woman once made me feel this way, but she wants nothing to do with me, so im stuck with my chemical romance. She/Oxy slowly pulls out the needles that have been thrust into my heart, one by one.

 

Sometimes I feel like drugs replace my loneliness too.

 

Oxy gives me a feeling similar to spending time with someone I love, the feeling of being wanted, desired. An empathetic connection.

Its dangerous because i dont have to reciprocate in relationships, i can just sniff a powder and feel as good as anything ever could make me feel.

I think of all the reason i do it, but then i realize, who needs reasons when you've got oxy.

 

Love or infatuated?

Both are dangerous, imho.

 

love is just infatuation with depth. Yes, both are very dangerous, they will leave you so very vulnerable.

addiction/obsession/infatuation/love can excentuate or destroy you. You need to tread lightly in any relationship, be it with a person, action or substance.

 

I know how that is. When I was doing it regularly it made me a lot more cheerful in the relationship I was in. I felt so in love and it took me a long time (until I was with drawling) to realize it wasn't the person that was making me feel that way...

 

i feel a little crappy today..I might take somethi9n later ..

 

i JUST railed 15mg. havent had any in a while so it should be veryyy nice. yum.

 

Ive probably posted here before - - nothing has changed> still wish I could feel a nice dope high. Being on Methadone Mat. for so long its nearly impossible. 120mgs a day -every day -for the last 20 yrs.
Saturdays I double up- drink 240 with 2 sticks (xanax)- thats as close as I can come to a nice opiate high> but at 59 yrs old ,I had my time with opiates. I had my time> when the dope was very good,& very plentiful. It cost me though. Cost me years of legal issues, family problems,and financial disasters -I wont even get into it.
All that being said, there is still something about the pull that opiates have that make you forget all the Bullshit and just want to nod away all day.:coffee:
I dont blame you guys,but be careful out there
:freezing: in NY
jjack

 

Awesome, i may be getting some OC today, i have no tolerance and im tempted to sniff 60-80mg.

usually with no tolerance 20mg has me high as fuck, and 40mg being almost instant nod. 60mg will probably be overkill.

Its been so long since ive been with her, i just want to cuddle on a couch with her and my silk victoria's secret blanket. lights dimmed, candles lit, the scent of rose in the air, steaming tea in a mug, euphoria and a warm fuzzy feeling. I dont need to die to go to heaven....

 

My brother found my dads stash of oxys I've been high all day

 

Aww...if only I could find someone as romantic as this..except with me and not my drugs. lol

 

that sounds great. i wanna find my brother's stash of xanax, you'll know when I do cuz I'll probably be here talking the massive shit haha.

 

Came up on 30 Perc 10's and 2 Fent 75's.

And like 25 feet of cacti.

 

wow im so jelous of u guys and gals...i need to rail over 100mg to nod...like 120-140...

 

i railed 140mg and chewed another 40mg and now im feeling good acctually great,lol ...

 

dude, i'm so glad i don't get many opiates, I love them and its obvious that it makes life better.

 

Alright dudes and dudettes,


I am probably one of this forums oldest active lurkers/posters, and have recently come back from Genghis Khan country.
To does2, you've officially brought me out of retirement.
To quote Joe from Family Guy;

"you know what I appreciate about your jokes Peter (does2)?
It's clean. It's clean funny."






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