i haven't taken x in a long time, too. about 2.5 years. i don't seek it out, but if someone i ran into had some molly, i would most likely take it. i don't really know what defines an orgy, but i've been in a number of group sex situations... one with 6 (extremely attractive) people. if you define an orgy as sex with with 4 or more people, i've been in a couple... and they are wild. the day after with the people is what's strangely spiritual for me.
I havent taken x in the same amount of time as you. I dont seek it out either, although it's one of my favorite drugs and I too would take molly if someone had it. Of course in my current condition I wouldnt I've never been in an orgy and when I think about it, it doesnt really appeal to me. Actually, I dont know...it all depends on the people that would be involved. They definitely would have to be very attractive, as in beautiful with the right energy. I've been in two threesomes and there was no connection between the 3 people, so to me it was all very bland and yawn worthy.
"Let me take you down, 'cos I'm going to Strawberry Fields. Nothing is real and nothing to get hung about. Strawberry Fields forever."
totally. the first threesome i was in was lame. but the 6er was amazing, impromptu, and really changed the way i think about sex, love, and lust. the people were all amazingly sexy, so that helped, and dean was a part of it. i never found the idea appealing until it actually happened. it was a product of drug use and too many bi chicks getting together it opened up dean's and my relationship. only thing is, when you get into that kind of thing, you start really liking it, and it's hard to find the right people for it, though we have managed to a couple times....
oh god. it drives me bananas. i guess that's why we're getting into the music biz.. outlet for the insanity.
All my wild sex experiences have been a consequence of drugs and people who find themselves with nothing to do. Most of them were fun, but also make me go whatever. Although most of my wild sex with John has been extremely sober, which make super fun I can understand what you say about really liking it and how hard it is to find the right people for it. I think that's the reason why it hasnt happened for us and it's a great feeling to have a relationship open and secure enough to experiment with these kind of things and I know having good communication it's important, but I also think it's important to not talk about it TOO much, because it kills the spontaneity.
wow thanks sweetie! I don't really think I'm all that amazing. I'm a Virgo... always see my faults and shortcomings. lol! But I've become much more self accepting and comfortable in my skin, after many years of insecurity and self hatred. So... now I'm pretty happy and peaceful, finally.
well i always find myself agreeing with your posts. even if we do judge ourselves a great deal... i see a really beautiful person, because that's what you are, you can't trick me
It's funny because I've never appreciated MDMA as anything special, and I guess I have 'lost the magic' or whatever people call it. Not only from abusing it to a dangerous level, but abusing it for days, sometimes weeks, consecutivley. MDMA has always felt like Methamphetamine to me, but with nausea and a higher fever. And it doesnt last nearly as long lol. The euphoria, empathy, teeth grinding, inability to shut up, etc. is all exactly the same, though of course MDMA has the glowing effect that is totally unique. Plus in most of my experiences with it, Im reminded of that scene in Fear and Loathing when the guys puking into the toilet, cursing the chemist for making the Mescaline so pure. Nearly every time I've taken it in powder form, mostly orally in capsules, it's been way too much for one dose, always made me very sick, pouring sweat, couch locked etc. I cant even imagine how people dance on the stuff, either they are getting a moderate dose, cut with speed, or I am highly sensitive to it (which could be the case, all amphetamine based drugs have me flying through the roof on even the smallest dose).
Really? I'm a Virgo and will forecast my shortcomings and faults as well, had no idea that's suppose to be a universal thing for us August-Sept people. Guess i'm not alone.
