Prophecy

I say everything as a stranger to you in this world who knows he cannot ultimately change your mind and actions. Nonetheless I am compelled to try, for I see things differently than you, and I fear you are on the path to a terrible danger and a horrible mistake.

If Mark dies by your hands then you will have committed a murder in the eyes of society and the law, and you will be punished for it. You will end a human life with your human hands. You will experience great suffering from this action, for the rest of your life. You will be at best institutionalized and at worst put into a broken and abusive prison system, the kind that will make your perceived abuses from Satan seem quaint. You will also have caused tremendous harm to another sentient being (Mark), and great harm to any who love and care for him, such as family he may have that you are unaware of; if you have any friends or family, they too will grieve for you deeply, as they will see you as completely lost to the mythology of your mind, disconnected from the world where the sun rises and sets and birds fly and water flows. You are displaying several different typologies of thought which are known to occur in people who have delusional schizophrenia. These people sadly sometimes are moved to actions which, internally may be thought to bring great release (such as slaying Satan and freeing their soul) but externally are simply another mental health murder headline, with a fleshy human corpse rendered lifeless and haloed by a police chalk outline.

Consider this list of the types of delusions most commonly seen in schizophrenia:

You have delusions of persecution: "satan is personally abusing me and making my life hell".
delusions of reference: "I happen to live in a town with a biblical name therefore I am biblically special" / the whole phonecall bit
delusions of grandeur: "satan has personally decided to take great care in torturing me personally"
delusions of control: "Mark has telepathic connection/control of my mind"

I understand if you are offended, or have heard this before, or don't want to hear it at all. That's fine. This is your life and you will live it according to your mental means. All I'm saying, like others here, is go share these thoughts and plans with members of the clergy and with a psychologist, psychiatrist, nurse, doctor, social worker, etc.

May you find peace without violence.

 

LMAO

The man is 6 foot 3 inches. I'm 5 foot 4 inches. What exactly do you think I could possibly do to a GIANT? Plus, I tried to "kill" him last year, it didn't work. Everybody, including me, knew that I'm gonna need a bigger bat. LOL

 

Dude, I never said any of that. Don't put words in my mouth, don't put things in my mouth I didn't say. I don't need your interpretations, not yours or anybody else's. It seems to me, in my eyes, that you're the one with a "mental" issue here .. since you're twisting what I said into something I didn't say. You're form-fitting my story to your thoughts / beliefs. That's not proper mental functioning, just so you know.

 

Aldous Huxley definitions for the Beta type genes is to quickly pretend that one is going to better work (for an alpha) in the morning.

 

Better work. Do you mean health and functioning? To be WHOLE (another way of saying Holy). To be wholly well, each aspect of our being (body, mind, spirit, soul). If one part is unwell, it can effect all the parts.

But where you say "one is going to better work (for an alpha) I get confused because it almost seems like employment .. working for somebody.

Well I wish the same thing, too. To be wholly well. If that's what you mean, about a working over. I sometimes daydream about space aliens .. I heard they got the best medical .. they can come pick me up and fix me good. LOL

 

Don't you think that, with over seven BILLION people on this rock, satan would have bigger fish to fry than pretending to talk on the phone, specifically to get at you? You're not very good or very bad, or very anything, in the grand scheme of things. Google is telling me that somebody dies every 1.8 seconds - if satan even considered you (assuming for the moment that there could even be a satan), it would not be a drawn out process, he's a busy guy. He doesn't have time to sit on benches, or wear hats, or have social networking bear pictures. He's motherfuckin' satin, he controls your torture forevermore, he doesn't need a fake phone call - and even if he did, that is in no way torturous. If you don't like it, walk away and avoid him - but when you happen to see him while avoiding him, it doesn't make him satan, it makes him a dude walking down the street.

I think he's a normal guy, who got nervous from how you were looking at him. Sometimes holding a phone up is a great way to look busy, when you need an excuse to be somewhere or something. Or maybe it really was a one sided conversation.

No offense, in any way - I'm not important enough for satan, either.

 

If voices come from outside we can't take them personally. Matter has three properties, absorption, reflection, and polarity. The only voice that has power over you is your own. If you find other voices convincing it is because you agreed with them. Our passionate responses, feelings, are married to our sense of right proportions. The thought or object of devotion comes first. There is always a sponsoring conception behind every sensation.

 

Question still not addressed, what is satans specialty if he is yours?

 

You mean Mark? Mark is the one walking around with the damn phone stuck to his head. He's such a demon. Mark isn't satan and satan isn't Mark. smh

Mark and I lived together. Sorta. We were both homeless, living in the homeless community. There was no walking away to avoid each other.

satan. satan is a 5 foot red lizard. A genuine physical being. It's lean and muscular, and red ..yes. But no horns.

 

When keepin' it real....goes wrong.

 

Voices? I didn't say anything about voices.

Let me make this clear: I'm not communicating in this thread for some need to be "helped". That's not what this thread / topic is for. I want people to lay off in trying to be my analyst, therapist, counselor or any other such thing. This isn't a "problem" to be "worked on". I TOLD a story - a true story - of my life. This isn't an opportunity for anybody to diagnose me, judge me, argue with me, debate me or "help" me. I've barely even begun to have any real conversation about any of it.

 

Music, sex, boys and girls .. young and old .. oh, and scripture. lol

http://youtu.be/q7GsQ43H9qw

 

Wow, Mr. Writer is very thorough and polite
Me, I'd just say your insane and leave it at that.

 

Let me make this clear I am trying to have a real conversation about what you are interested in.
As far as voices you said this,

Does that mean he's a musician who has sex with boys and girls including the necrotic while quoting scripture?

 

You did not ask me what I meant by that. Instead, you told me what and so about voices. I'm not talking about voices, that isn't what I meant.


Har-Har, no.

 

This post is hidden because you have chosen to ignore posts by NoxiousGas.

Just gonna ask it straight out: what are you here for?

Are you here to smack me? Kick my ass? Knock me around? Don't like me? Don't like what I talk about, or how FREE I am in what I talk about? Want to put me in my place, shut me down?

I know you like to get into it with people on the internet, I know you're a tough guy and you like to shine. I read your article there, the one about drugs, where the other dude "lost" and you "won". Your pride.

What draws you in to this thread here, when you and I don't get along, and we both know it?

btw, I enjoyed that article and it was very impressive. And I say that because I'm honest. That's exactly what I thought. It was an interesting read. I'm glad I stumbled upon it.

 

just making an observation

funny how you put people on ignore, yet still go out of your way to respond to those "ignored"...why?
if you are going to read what they post anyway, why have them on ignore?
I'm pretty sure we have gone over this "ignore" silliness whenever you first went on your "ignore everyone that doesn't agree with me" spree last year.

Have you ever gone back a day later and read what you posted?
sometimes your stuff is completely out there and lends one to no other conclusion than, "you are insane".
sorry, but it is your communications that bring me and others to that conclusion, nothing else.

as far as what draws me to this thread, well I, just like you, am curious and need no further explanation beyond that.


honestly, some of the things you say/describe are classic signals of schizophrenia, just sayin'.




and thank you for the compliments about that other article.

 

I don't always respond. I rarely read the posts of the ones I clash with. It depends on the thread. Like the thread where you introduced the article. I was following the exchange that was happening there, so it was minimal risk, to me, to read your posts. Otherwise, I mostly avert.

Ah, excuse. It isn't if somebody disagrees with me. It's a matter of negativity edging on hostility. When I first got here, I got slammed by a FEW people .. entirely unwarranted and unprovoked. If red thumbs were still an option here, I'd still be getting harassed .. there is no doubt about that.

I don't care how "out there" it may seem .. do you EVER see me go around slamming people, the way you, rollingalong, sunfighter and GLENGLEN (and a few others) do? What's it gonna be if I call you a faggot ****? Socially acceptable, some of the time, depending on who's dishing it out and who's getting their ass kicked.

Skitters, hmm? What's schizophrenic about the first story and the second? I didn't imagine any of that, and I don't distort details. I tell it exactly as it happened. They're true stories, real events.

OH, you don't believe that I'm a Living Witness of satan in its genuine physical form? Why not? Is it because you believe satan isn't real, doesn't exist, is a metaphor - or - that it's ME (because that would make me ... special? lol). OOPSIES, maybe it's just against the rules to talk about it. Well then, call me a rebel.

Do you prefer to believe I imagined it? You'd be wrong. Very, and entirely wrong. It all is exactly what I say it is. The thing is, you don't hear or read stories like mine every day. So it's new to your mind. Remember this: you don't have the experience, and I do.

And think of this: why is it okay and acceptable for Tori Amos to sing about satan, but not okay for me to talk about my life experience with the one who IS very real and does exist? Oh, and Tori is not nearly the only one who sings about that lizard.

If you respond again, I'll read it. But I'll say it again: I didn't start this thread looking for "help". I'm not looking for guidance or counseling or therapy or diagnosis. This thread isn't a call for help, thank you very much.

yw for the compliments.

 

So I would like more information on satans specialty since the answer is no. I know what you meant and my saying what I said is not to deny it. What speaks is the voice. I also told you about the properties of matter the import of which is that you use these to fashion the character or flavor of you experience.

i have heard from other people the statement that a difficult relationship is destined to be until death do us part and i think that it better relationships be resolved in life.
Where is the philosophy or wise loving part of your autobiographical tale here?

 

This is what I think: I've never read so much jibber-jabber in my life.

Ever!

And I've read a lot of it, and even heard more...growing up in church in all. but this...DEARGOD

J.I.B.B.E.R. J.A.B.B.E.R.