Psychedelic Bump XX

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I'll keep you in my prayers GM. I know what that giant crater in your chest feels like. Losing my dad to cancer is the toughest thing I've ever had to deal with. He's still in my dreams all the time and it's been three years. It's not easy to cope but I hope you're able to find a new peace with it as soon as possible. Don't forget you learn from the things that are toughest in life.
Hang in there! <3

 

Sorry for your loss dude, I know what it feels like.

Be careful if you're planning on dosing, it may very well help you deal with it - or it could send you into a nightmare.

Be safe bud.

 

GM,
Heart goes out to you, it's been a journey for your Mom...

Rejoice in your time together, she lives on in your heart, where shes always lived, where it matters.

You have friends out west, is all I'm saying there...

 

Thanks everyone. All of your kind words and caring vibes have lifted my spirit quite a bit. It really means a lot to me. I feel so alone here but it is an incredible feeling to know that all of you, people from abroad that I have yet had the pleasure of meeting face to face, are there for me and unbelievably empathetic. Sorta restores some of my faith in humanity lol.

One person that I wish the most was still around for me cry upon their shoulder is Cosmo. After it happened, in the midst of my hysteria, I picked up my phone and thumbed to his number and just stopped and started crying even harder. After my dad passed my mom became my rock and when I got close to cosmo so did he. It was the scariest feeling I have ever had... to not have a single person I could turn to for strength.

I have been drifting in uncertainty, fear, and hopelessness desperately trying to ground myself and gather my sanity and the strength to carry on. Having to pretend to have it all together and to be strong for my brother is eating me alive.

I don't mean to bring anyone down but I am desperate for advice espescially about certain legal things like getting into her bank account and safety deposit box. If anyone has had to do any of this and can shed a little light, please PM me.

 

i was gonna ask how your brother was doing. i guess i didn't consider that he would add to the difficulty of the situation, but as an older sibling, i get you now...

did she have a will? a lawyer?
usually bank accounts will have a beneficiary.

 

No will, no lawyer, no beneficiary as far as i know. ALL money is frozen.

 

You should probably talk to a lawyer. And probably have to.

Ask for free consultation, before you pay someone to tell you they can't help you.

 

When someone dies in Louisiana, their estate must be processed through the probate court. Through the probate process, all of the property in the deceased's estate will be transferred to surviving heirs either as directed by a will or other testamentary instrument or by Louisiana inheritance law if the deceased died without a will.

Read more: How to Open an Estate With Probate Court in Louisiana | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/how_8411368_open-estate-probate-court-louisiana.html#ixzz2I0sKBqBf
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Thanks. That helps a lot. I am in such a state of panic and confusion I didn't even bother to google shit. This is going to be absolute hell since she didn't write a will, I told her a thousand times that she needed to and to make me the beneficiary on her bank so we wouldnt have to struggle with money while we do the susuccession. God help me, I need a fuckin xanax.

 

bump for my bro trying molly. he ate some friday night (a redose or two) AND saturday night (about 6 times throughout the night). he said it was AWESOME. he mentioned laying on the floor and singing while his friend played the guitar, petting a cat and LOVING it, going to the bar and LOVING the bar, getting his dance on, some great sex with his (non)girlfriend. sounds like he enjoyed it quite a bit, but i told him not to do it two days in a row again (or 10 times in a weekend). he said something about "one and a half" which i interpreted as 150 mg, but then he said he got 3 bags for $40 (1 was $15), so maybe it was more than 150 mg per bag...he obviously doesn't know how much he dosed.

3 days til we see Dirty Heads for the 3rd time (and hoobastank)

 

Bump for my DOC coming friday, will bump again when studying it and it's effects on my rose garden.

 

you shouldnt tell the feds your expecting something .. really..

 

It's probably a lie to impress my internet friends anyways. Also, DOC is unscheduled although possession could be prosecuted under the federal analogues act.


I'm hoping for no hang ups, but it's most likely a lie like I said. Thank you for your advice.

 

@porkstock: sounds like your bro had a great time with MDMA. I'm surprised, being your brother and all,he used it so excessively.

Bump for ~65 mgs Intramuscular Mexxy and more to come.

 

Totally legal, as long as you have no inclination to ingest it, or allow others to ingest it.

You may collect it simply for it's value as a curio. Or for just about anything, if you don't ingest it or allow/cause others to.

 

yeah, he's a little more reckless than his older brother

and unlike all of us drug nerds in here...he doesn't really research new substances before trying them.

but for all we know he was eating out of a 150 mg bag all night. however much it was, sounds like it was enough to roll pretty good. he said he didn't feel crappy the next morning. that's like a type of beginners luck with mdma, right?
hopefully he actually got mdma and not methylone "molly" or something...

 

I've only done MDMA 3x, with a reasonable single dose each time, and months/years between doses, but I've never felt ANY ill effects.

If you're feeling bad, I would guess you're pushing things too hard. Similar to alcohol, if you have a hangover you're pushing too hard, too often, etc.

 

I enjoyed mxe last night, however I spilled some upon Redosing which made me fairly distraught. The idea of a group trip via the net (with any psychedelic) seemed extremely enthralling to me last night. Having a 'real time' trip report thread with people posting thoughts or media to equivocate perceptions, ideas seemed interesting to me and see how it would acutely influence others trips. As I'm sobering up, which probably won't be for long, it seems like it may be difficult to coordinate but I still think it could be interesting.

Yah hope he didn't pay that much for 150 mgs and that he had legitimate MDMA. That's good that he didn't have a crash.

 

You really have to abuse MDMA (or have a rare specific disposition to it) to have ill effects.

Continuous frequent use could damage the serotonin receptors or too much at once.

Careful dosing and spacing rolls out by at least a month is recommended for the receptors to recover.

I've abused it a bit over the last 4 months and only had one unpleasant come down... And it wasn't really that bad to be fair. From what I've read, it was identical to comedown from some antidepressants. It lasted 4 days and I was perfectly fine again. I pushed the dose a bit high on a third roll in 5 days and so brought it on myself.

I candy flipped on the Thursday, candy flipped again on the Saturday with about 200mg each time then my other half got back from visiting family on the Monday and we rolled together. I pushed a bit with re-dosing that night and had 200mg + 2x 100mg top ups.

It was silly and I won't be repeating that, that's for sure.

I let myself get carried away with the opportunities that presented themselves that long weekend.

Since then, I've stuck to 140mg with an 80mg top-up when I was just sticking to MDMA and have not lost any enjoyment or suffered any ill effects other than the above.

Although now I don't even top up with MDMA, I enjoy mixing with a small amount of mda and then maybe topping up with a little bit of base if going out... Or acid + 2c-b is a wonderful head space

Anyhow, my MDMA days are much more infrequent from now on in my new locale... With my limited free time, I'm more interested in LSD