Relationships SUCK Part 2

God I wanted to barf the first time I had sex ): I know I always pretend like it was great because I got taken on this awesome weekend getaway, but I was so disgusted and I def was pressured looking back. I made such bad choices in guys. No one looking in would know it because they were all awesome on paper, but ewwww now that I think about it it's fuckign gross.

 

Me too.

145 exactly.

 

no, you got me wrong. I don't think all teenagers are stupid. I think people who fuck teenagers made a really stupid choice.
Who are you mad at right now? Her or you?
Everyone always seems mad at everyone else when they should be mad at themselves.

 

I can't picture you that way. You'd be 72% less hot as a stick woman.

 

It cracks me up because she is comparing me to the guy that took her virginity who apparently was a fucking huge gorilla, and I'm 145, and soft and cute. lol And I'll say it one last time, no one was ever pressured into anyting, I do understand how Bella is feeling but her experience is almost completely unrelated to ours.

 

Let me note-that while these are my true feelings, they may be coming out harshly as I quit taking xanax and am def having withdrawlas. I am sorry if I came across harsh. I know from experience this does nothing but drive people further intot heir own opinion, making them defensive and wanting to reject everyone else's thoughts.
I totally should have went about it in a less offensive way.

 

He treated the girl the same way he would have treated an adult. If a guy you were going out with had his new girlfriend tell you that it's over, you'd be mad at yourself?

 

I am mad at myself, but don't tell me I have no right to be mad at her either. I was screwed over here, and you are making excuses for her treating me like shit, even though I did ask for it I suppose, just because she will be 18 in three days. I think it's hilarious, how much maturing do you think she is going to do in three days?

 

It's okay, maybe after this we can actually get along. And I'm not trying to be defensive either, but I am still hurting.

 

awe thanks . I have pics in a few threads on here. i was 100 stick and boobs untill I took the deproprovera shot at 19 and still never got over a size 10 until I hit about 23.
My goal is to be a 10 again ( I am a 14 now). I've lost 9 pounds so far. Having my tooth pulled kinda jump started it. I've been hiking a couple of times a week with my kids and have been food-journaling, making sure I don't go over 1400 calories a day and get 5 fruits and veggies and 20 grams of fiber in.
I am very proud of myself.
Last week I had a bit of an issue, made cookies, ate like 10 of them in one night and gained a couple pounds back, but it seems that it was just bloating because it came back off yesterday when I got back o track.
I have about 20 more pounds to go.
I wanna be hot as hell when we move back to CA.

 

Betcha dollar you already are to everyone who counts but you. But self esteem is important, carry on.

 

He was a huge fucking gorilla. He was almost 300 pounds and was over 300 when I broke up with him.
The guy after that rammed my cervix (not on purpose-just because he sucked in bed) and was emotionaly fucked up. I am very controlled with guys usually so I spent 2 years hurting him as much as a possibley could, getting giddy when I saw I made him caoll 10-20 times in a night.
Then I fucked a DJ and a couple exes from high school. We had short relationships, but the sex was fun and mutally enjoyable.
Then I slept with my husband and OMG. He has a huge penis, which sucks because I am really small down there, but he is so freaking gentle.

 

you kids never grow up!!!!! Im telling

 

OK tell that story again, but slower this time...

 

Sounds like you were as messed up then as I am now. lol

 

Your sweet, but I am not stupid. I know my husband wants me back to how I was when we first met. I don't blame him.

 

God I was so fucked up. After my dad raped me I went on to play hard to get to the point of intentiopnaly causing every guy I was with immense pain.
Then I start dating my husband and a month later I tell him he needs to propose to me.
I didn't make him chase me a bit and he still loved me.

 

OK. Whatever makes you two happy.

 

i''m entirely confused at how this thread has come to

 

Me too man, Me tooooo. lol