I am so sorry for your loss. When I was about your age, my boyfriend died... if you need to talk with anyone, feel free to drop me a PM.
Bumble ... I am hurting to hear you talk about your love for him. Pray a lot, remember him as your besy friend ever ... keep crying to show your love for him ...but the best "gift" you can give him now ...is to be successful with your life. Every time you have an achievemnt remember that he is giving you energy to accomplish it. Tell his family how much you loved him and what it meant to you ...and continue your life ...thinking of him ...and you will regain your strengths ... GOD will give us energy for resignation ... "let us be with you" ..Amen
Sorry for your loss of him in this world. I hope you find some comfort in knowing you got to share your life with him while he was here. *hugs Bumble*
Talk to your profs/teachers if you ahve any assignments due or tests fairly soon, hopefully they can lighten your load a little so you have more time to process and to grieve.
that's what I will be doing. Everyone of you gave amazing advice that I will be using. I'm extremely tired because i haven't slept since it happened. I will update you all tomorrow.
This is a picture of him DJing at Drexel University's radio station. The days are getting harder, but they will get better. I know they will. Thanks for all the support.
I am so sorry. He truly is in a better place now, and he will be watching down on you. He knows how you feel for him. And you two will surely be together again someday. Best wishes.
It was around this time a few years ago, someone very close to me died as well. The funeral was the day before I was to go back to school. I did not have a good semester, trying to focus on school and ignore what I was feeling. Please don't ignore what you are feeling, honor your love for him, honor him in whatever way you feel you need to, and never feel guilty for wanting to take time out to think about him or do something for yourself that reminds you of him, or even to do something for yourself that gives you peace from the thought that he is no longer with you. Don't let people tell you how to grieve, which I suppose is actually what I'm doing. But this time period will be a haze, I remember what it was like, of course my situation is not like yours at all, with how close you were and such. But I really hope that you don't end up hurting longer than you have to, deal with it while it's current, is what I'm trying to say, and make it a habit to be close to him and close to what you felt for him, don't let it drift away for anything, not even trying to get your education, school isn't going anywhere. (((big hugs))) and disregard anything that I said that may have offended you, I just hope things get easier for you, and I don't want you to hurt anymore than you need to. You are in my thoughts, big time.
so i was working on putting pictures together for the funeral. I felt upset, but happy at the same time. I need to look for more pictures though. I have a problem though. As some of you may know, i might be pregnant. I want to take a test soon, but i was thinking about waiting until after the funeral because I don't think that would be a good thing to tell his parents at this time, that's if it comes up positive. my period was suppose to come today. no signs of it coming whatsoever. usually my hips hurt and i have cramps. In a way I'm hoping that I'm pregnant so that his spirit can live on. I'm strong enough to be a single mom. some of my close friends offered a helping hand if needed.
this is so terrible. sorry to hear about your loss. When i was 16 my boyfriend got killed by 3 cars.. His skull got crushed. It was a rainy day and he slipped off the curb and the car was turning and hit him. When that light was red the other was green and the first car hit him and the car behind him just caught on to him by than Nic was prounounced dead. I was told in school dealt w/ it. as in being told in the middle of the school day and holding everything in ) School was let out. As his sister was at a different school his parents made the arrangements and i brought hte casket up and rode in the car with the family. I have 3 photos of Nic with some other things he wanted me to have . It is very hard to go through something like this. if you ever want to PM plz feel free to do so. Because i know what you are going through Peace~love~joy PG
awww that's horrible. sorry you had to go through that. It's getting harder. I'm going to completely lose it when I see him laid out on sunday and monday.
During times like these maybe you shouldn't be focusing on anything but yourself. Today was the funeral, right? What are you trying to focus on? Are you eating well? I know in those days proceeding and after a funeral it can be difficult for those left behind loved ones to eat and sleep properly. I hope you are trying to stay healthy, that can further send your emotions into chaos. Do you have people around you, supporting you?
i tried to eat, but i threw it all up. yeah i have people around me at times. yes the funeral was today. it was so hard. i spoke at the funeral. i have no clue how i did it.
yeah, I've seen people say the exact same thing, say the most beautiful things and then sit down and they're completely perplexed about how they had the ability to speak at all. I'm really sorry honey, I hope your days become more manageable soon. Maybe just stick with water and fruit and small snacks? (((hugs again)))
