Since the crisis line was busy....

oh, I'm so stupid... I typed a long message and then I click the wrong thingie, so the whole message is gone... shit!!!
but what I wanted to say is that I'm glad you are doing a little better now... off course it sucks that it goes so slow... but my experience is, that when you get 'better' verry quick, the sooner you'll get worse again...
maybe you've mentioned it before, but what kind of medication are you on?? me different things...
if you need someone to contact that going to a sort of the same thing... you may turn to me (problem is that I can only use the internet on weekends...)

 

Sorry, but you don't make any sense. Clinical depression (which is not the same as the garden variety "I've got the blues" type of depression that you seem to enjoy confusing it with--I still recall your "compassionate" comment about Anne Sexton's suicide on another thread...) is due to a chemical imbalance. Period. Consequently, I'm going back on antidepressants, and giving therapy a shot. Because that really did help me a lot in the past. And seems to help a lot of other folks living with major depression. It's not for everybody. But it does work for some. So I'm gonna go for it.

I'm afraid all the "happy" thoughts in the world--are just not good enough when it comes to clinical depression. You do know what a chemical imbalance is, huh? I mean, since you have been "battling" depression for 38 years. In fact, I DO focus on what is good in my life and/or the world. Rather often. That's how I have managed to stay alive--even when the depression was so bad that a part of myself wanted to die ASAP. That's the illness doing that to my thinking. Not something as simplistic as "selfishness." *rolling my eyes* So when things look that dark to me, I am the first person to say that things could easily become much worse, and I need to become more grateful for that fact alone. And work on doing what I can to make things better. How about yourself? I mean, whenever you make a comment about mental illness on one of my threads (so far) it is invariably negative, and a bit too judgemental for comfort. Now why is that? So my final word to you: Physician heal thyself.

Peace,

PD

 

Hey, thanks! And I hope your own depression has lifted somewhat? I'm not on any meds at the moment. But have an appointment with a doctor next week. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I'll try and chat with you during the weekends, etc. Maybe we could even just do it on this thread? I mean, if you feel okay with that. So let me know. Thanks again!

Peace,

PD

 

This is a weird little tip, but... Make it a goal to invite someone into your apartment at least weekly. You'll have a good reason to keep it clean and will be more likely to bust your butt/bathe.

 

Blackie, while I totally agree, I think you have to consider that a lot of people lack the ability to exercise perspective, or empathy, or whatever you want to call it. This is a reason a lot of people benefit from conventional therapy. Humanistic counseling doesn't work if you already can see things from most points of view. I think that applies to you as well as myself, so I'm not criticizing you. Most people still operate under the illusion that in order for their feelings to be significant, they have to be supported by other people. Hope that made sense.