Sole mate searching

Or maybe not? Nevermind. You probably think I am nuts! :^)

 

Oh no.. I just fell asleep.. [I am kind of a grandma about that lol] I do think there is something wrong with staying at home, having babies, getting married and moving into a trailer behind your parents.. It is just a waste of human life. I think it has to do with a fear of leaving high school, bc everytime i go back i hear about the same dramas going on between those who willingly stayed.. In there eyes i am an old maid haha

And I dont think you are nuts =] I used to date a guy that was 32ish when i was 18 but out of high school of course he wasnt a creep. He just acted a little too old for me.. He acted a little too old for his age.. And I have been sexually involved with a guy for about 5 months now that is 34 but he doesnt act as old. And i dont think there would ever be any other level to our relationship anyway, sometimes since we have been doing that for so long i confuse sex with emotions but reguardless it would never work out.

 

thier not there.. i hate when people do that and i just did.. Ima douche haha

 

Hey. Your comment about the high school thing. I notice in a lot of work environments, including the one I've been in for some time, that it seems very high school or possibly middle school. I get depressed sometimes in part because I think that most of people's motivations might actually boil down to pecking order and territoriality and mate competition. Pack dynamics, basically, when they probably don't percieve themselves that way, yet I feel outside of them witnessing it.

How come you're so darned cute?! :^) I am so glad that I have not royally offended you. It's not like I really expect to hang out with you, necessarily, but I think you're pretty special. Quite a Soulmate, indeed. XO

 

Well thank you. I am glad you think so and sorry to scare you like that lol.. I tried to stay awake for your reply I really did. but i didnt even get a nap yesterday.. If i could just stay in bed all the time I would.. Not out a depression or an anti-social attitude I just like to sleep. haha

I think that a lot of the people in that mind set think that life is a race to the wedding dress and that having kids is a game that you play to beat out how "cute" your friends are when they are pregnant. For example, a guy I used to date in high school is married with 2 kids, one of which was born the summer before his wife and himself even graduated, but instead of growing up, being responsible parents, and being concerned with providing for his family, they are still starting rumors, talking crap, and trying to fight people.. WTF? I guess it is just something I will never be on the inside of..

 

Sleep is awesome. Suspended animation might be nice, really. Say, just until this whole Homo Sapiens thing blows over. (I think they're a fad.)

What you describe is sad, sad. I remember long ago when I was probably 15 or so riding a Greyhound across country. (Now there's a delightful experience!) There was a girl around my age with a heavy southern accent who asked if I had any kids and she seemed mystified that I did not. Almost as though she wanted to remedy the situation. There was an old lady overhearing this who seemed to share my bewilderment. I think I even felt a little repulsed by it honestly. Like, um, Ew! I'm 15!

I will have to run pretty soon here. It is nice talking to you.

 

Well, have a good day.. I should probably get up and get dressed before i get too comfortable in my jammies.. I need to actually do some studying today.. For I have no will to watch the superbowl.. =]

 

Superbowl? Ew! I did not watch T.V. at all for several years, and recently landed a nice little rental house where I can keep my animals that includes DishT.V. and the owner didn't even know that by its proximity there is also free wireless. So pretty cool, and I tend to turn the T.V. on sometimes now but there are so many freaking channels that I don't know if I could even FIND the regular basic ones. LOL.

You have a good day, too, cutie. And do some studying. :^)

 

I watch the reality shows on VH1 a LOT.. lol I dunno why.. And I love comedy central but i dont really venture too far out of that.. Unless I am in a sappy mood, then i go with Turner Classic Movies bc black and white romance movies are the best.. =]

The only reason i might watch the superbowl is for the commercials.. But i have a wierd fascination with commercials in general.. I love them [most of them].. lol idk why, some of them are just sooooo funny.. they are the better part of tv in my opinion

 

That guy asked me to study/get some coffee with him later.. hmmmm.. we'll see how that goes.. =]

 

Hello. Well you're probably studying and coffeeing by now. :^)

On the aforementioned sex and love confusion I'd say that I may be weird especially as a guy but I don't get that close to a girl without feeling love. I suppose that can be bad when it comes to becoming entangled with a wild girl. I tend to feel like they need love too.

Just to make sure you know I think you have every right to watch whatever. You know? I'm just the way I am. I love the title of a VH1 show, "The World's Most Smartest Model," or something to that effect! Seems like I didn't really get into the show when I tried to watch it once.

Well, good luck to you. He probably likes you. Look how cute you are! :^)

 

There was a time when i felt like i loved him and i suppose i do, I just try to guard myself from that.. And try my best to stay away from him, which i dont do so well..

But on a better note the coffee/studying thing went great.. We didnt even study we just sat there and talked for 3 hours.. Wow And there wasnt ever a moment of awkward silence.. I am still unsure of his intentions but we shall see.. =]

 

Right on. Lucky guy! :^) I hope it works out for you. I know there can be times when you need to disconnect the love thing from a person. I am not good at that, either! A new guy might do the trick.

 

I think so.. bc i dont have the will or want to cheat.. I have before and i wouldnt ever do it again..

 

Hey. Not feeling entirely certain what you mean by cheat. As in what context that is in. Perhaps elaborate, if so inclined.

 

I meant if i did end up further dating this guy [from the coffee shop] then i think that i would find it much easier to stay away from the other..

 

It seems as tho I have a history of shutting down and going to sleep at the most critical points in the conversation haha Well, I am off to class.. Have a great day!

 

Hey. Yeah I did finally kind of figure that out. You have a great day, too. :^)

 

I get a little crazy with my wording sometimes.. I stumble over some of my words when i am talking too, I wouldnt call it a stutter I just think faster than i talk..

 

Meh! As the goths say. It's cool. I notice that you seem to concern yourself with it sometimes. I'm not all anal nit-picky. I do the "their, there" thing for example sometimes as well. :^)