Tell me the problems with child relationships

ewwwwww no that's not a compliment. you don't know how many times I have heard that and it's not about how good looking somone is it's violence. It bothers me to a disgusting level when people say stuff like that.

 

Child molestation depends on the molestor it self . he can be a cruel son of bitch but this are rare of course any child would be affected "some even kill" no difrent than a son of bitch set of parents or he could be a nice guy in this case the child wont notice much . i get burn up when some 15 or 16 year old are treat it like he was some kind of a inocent child when some older guy or gurl is found having a relation ship . to save face the teen blames the older partner "in court" for everything , like the couple of teacher and student case recently . What im trying to say here is in the U.S anything below the legal age is looked as child molestation . But im not that dumb you see i was once 13 and 14 and 15 year old, and i remember well what i wanted.

 

Also if a child "why not" murders a family or friend then hes charge as a Adult .

 

If some one is white and rich with a good lawyer the skies are the limit.

 

Lets not forget folks this is the land of double standards.

 

exactly sort of one of my points but then i'm guessing from your tone that you are a guy, one of my question (maybe not stated yet) is their a similar feeling in girls and around what ages ? (i know it will be kind of inaccurte because maybeI'll get a response from one or two people but i would like to know anyways)

oh yeah lynsly i was just making an oberservation because that tends to happen to beautiful girl/women but i can see how it is grim and creepy

 

no, it happens to anyone who is exposed to somone who has those tendencies...

 

i guess i'm just journaling online, but i have to say something somewhere,( sry for crude words)

Sometimes when i'm reflecting it can feel wrong, whenever i'm doing it nothing feels better. i have been touching/fondling/molesting two of my younger female cousins, i have been to therapist only to learn that underage molestation or relationships are by law must be reported to child services if the therapist hears a confession. So i can't say anything in that compartment. One of them emily asked me what she would have to do to make me stop, i said in words she comprehend have sex with me. Hopefully if all goes well which i learned nothing ever does she be sleeping in her room tomorrow night. (she usually sleep in her father room so i can't touch)/ I'm already arranging my dialogue to contol her. Things that have made me feel worse when i recall them. After i was touching her, emily, when her dad was away, when he return she was moody at him and overall in a worse mood then before. Mia the other one wrote for a school paragraph i like to play with my cousin jordan , that made me sad knowing what i might be doing. Emily is starting to be fed up with me she wonders why i'm the only one who does this to her. On a positive note i never had to threaten or scare her to make sure stays quiet. Also she made a game of it where she pushes her "button" and then she doesn't fell anything so i can touch at will. I really starting to believe emily likes when i play with pussy because when were at the pool or anywhere that the place she always want me touch. She also comes to my room when she bored so we can play. i remember how i frist initiated her. We laying on my bed, she seen my cock before, and i asked her to close her eyes. With her eyes closed i told her to follow my hand and then i placed her hand on my dick and had her stroke it, the frist time the look was of utter fascination, i am reading lolita now and their are some truth in his words, wow it hard to think of what i wrote and to think of what i'm doing hopefully this adn whatever comments i might here well ease my burden. I end with a thought i've always wanted to say to a girl, "the more like a animal you treat me the more of one i become"

 

You, like in the past, are a complete freak, hopefully this time you'll be gone for good, from here and society that is.

 

14 is legal in good 'ol Canada.

There have been nights where that has been a good thing.

 

i'm writing for my own amusment here. i don't have any real question or concerns i just like to journal how this one affair is going and it nice to know someone could be reading but if no one is that is fine with me-

not much in just one day, of course she decided not to sleep in her room again so i'm left out for now. But i know as the weeks pass it well just get hotter so she will be mine soon enouph. Again she feels conflicted and asked me why i touch her, i couldn't give a response that would help my cause so i remained silent. She is giving me conflicted messages sometimes upset and moody with me or direct it towards her father or exteremly happy and sexual positioning her pussy in front of me. Today wan't a bad day, the highlight was being able to get my well lubricated finger partly in her, and i belive her clitorus was filled with blood after a few min of stimulation, she seemed to enjoy herself at least some of the time. Slight regreat of the day her dad who watches over her like a hawk went to do laundry and she gave me a sly invitation that she wanted me to go upstaris she was taking bath, but i got the wrong idea and untill she spoke more directly i did't come up untill it was almost over, barely got any time to fondle before her father returned she be gone for the rest if the week but on friday i met mia, the other one so i won't be writing anything probably till then i didn't edit since i probably the only one reading this

 

Wow. You are disgusting- how old are you and how old is she?

 

Oh yes, I forgot to add: you're fucking stupid to post this on a forum where you're IP can be traced.

 

wow i think i was banned from the site, if its so personal then pretend that all i am saying is lies if it so offensive that it has to banned
Anyways for all purposes i going to joural here to do was a good day P.S. if it makes you feel better imagine the little girls are 18 years old

The day went as usally one the girls i was closer to is now started to be quite frigid soon i think she might move but i make sure to replace her with one of her freinds no worry got more out of her then i thought i would going in. Every trying to rape eileen thought i might be able to at lunch and like so many times before was disappointed i maybe got this far like 30 times but to many people could coax her to the ally can't blow my cover yet, instead though played a chess game with someone much better, as eileen cheer for the other player i thought going in i would lose but i did mange to win but he ran out of time because i had 10 min and he had 5. This is not to out of the orfinary for me but tonight i went to a artist get together with some older people, it was quite enjoyable and it felt werid to be geniunely liked for my thougts made feel like there is an upper eschalon that worth striving for. i never let my thoughts weigh me done. but i be sad to be banned because i like to speak to you all. i' usally so alone with my ideas its hard to tell if everything i do is a dream i desperatly living shallow to fit in and lashing out at the innocents that i can reach becasue i have a lot of rage that needs a way to rest. i am in the end though happy just a sad pathetic boy creating a web of pain to people who may or may not of never done anything wrong. But i guess it makes people mad because i know this i know what wrong but i still do it and even now i'm slowly but surely losing my ablity to control myself but tonight for second i thought maybe there is a place were i could be happy
when we leave this world we take nothing except what we carry in our minds, i like your fury because it makes me feel like i being punished for what i am doing so i can do more of it and then you can yell at me so then i don't feel so bad, till whenever

 

Psycologically molestation is devastating to young children. It could become a factor or cause of depression when they are older. Feeling like your being taken advantage of or you were taken advantage of is one of the reasons people kill themselves, especially if they are or were helpless to stop it.

Please, if the girl is 12 or younger get the hell away from her before you do any more damage.

Also, molestation victims turn into molesters when they are older, or so the T.V. says.

 

very funny line, nothing knew today

 

So did your dad fuck you up the ass sinnabin? i know somebody fucked with you, otherwise you wouldn't be as insane and doomed as you are today. Who fucked you? the least you can do is tell us how you got to be the worthless being you are today.

 

Not that i really want go any deeper into this situation i just left wondering maybe some of us were born to the wrong, i'm not talking about myself becasue i can see places i mmight blame though they all kind of point back to me, except the frist one like most story the promblem seems simplistic but grows and grows untill the root seems petty to the result

Ahab- whale bite off leg, lead a crew to its death trying to kill a whale because he belives it is a concentration of all that it evil

Holden Caulfield- brother dies, loses his sanity ends in mental wards begins his inncoent complex, lost of childhood yakety yak

The minister black veil, Hawthrone- The minster does an untold crime, probably adulty, claims that everyone has a sercet double life and thus wears a black viel to show his mask one he think everyone has on.

Great expectation- HAvishamed dumped by man, makes a girl to hurt everyone, creates conflict in pip's life

etc.......

 

in that case all Spartans and accient greeks all turn into child molestors . Child molestation is ugly when a child is truely young . lets say under 12 . after that it could be a totally difrent storie. and dont forget kids play with each other sexually any time the right circumstance "or chance" happens "of course i would not call this molestation or can we?" a 11 years old teaching his friend 10 year old how to masturbate or actually masturbating him" is a very complex subject.