The only girl I ever loved

Very sorry for your loss

She looks like a wonderful person in the photo

 

I am sorry. I hope the pain fades quickly and good memories are all that's left.
HUGS

 

The pain is still there, but the wonderful memories are starting to dominate. I started a journal yesterday and I'm going to write a letter to her every day, or at least once a week once the need to write every day dissipates. I wrote an e-mail to her uncle requesting that if the bracelet I gave her for Christmas is anywhere to be found, I'd like her to be buried with it on. She was a raver, and "kandi" was one of her favorite things. I wish I could find the kandi she made me. A lot of the beads broke off of it, but it's still beautiful.

I've been venting mostly on MySpace. Two of her friends from California who were not with her the night of the "accident" have been writing me on there and as much as I wanted to avoid all of her friends from California, they've been a miracle. I'm going to post some pictures, probably in the members photos forum from the altars and posters people have made for her. They're beautiful, as poisonous as the people she was with Monday night were, most of her friends...her REAL friends, loved her and are grieving just like me. And we're all talking to the higher ups in the marijuana activism movement and we're trying to get her story out before someone tries something stupid like blaming it on pot. If it takes the rest of my life to guarantee it, Kaylin is not going to die in vain.

 

i just cried for about 15 minutes strait after reading this, i feel so much for you. it reminds me of so many friends and people whove gone so many good people leaving us everyday i cant bear to think it. that i will not see them in this life anymore it breaks me in two i can only hope that one day well all be together again. how could someone leave her like that.......omg why why does such coldness plague us my heart and soul go out to you and your friend i hope like someone else said that the pain fades and you have good memories in its place she looks like such a happy person...im sure she is at peace. there is not enough love in this world and i swear that from today on my short and fragile life will be spent giving it everywhere and to everyone i ever meet. for that is all that ever really has and does matter anyway

lots of love