The sense of belonging one has

It's funny. I lived in DR practically all of my life. I get along well with my family, I have way too many friends, we get along even better. I dont hate my country. I dont love my country. I just never felt like I belonged there. The only times when I miss it, is when someone mentions the word beach, I think about drinking in the street or we run out of cigs and nobody wants to go to the store, in DR I could call the colmado and problem solved, for cigs and anything else I wanted.
Even though I was very involved with everybody and everything, I still felt very alienated.
When I was in NYC, I liked the feeling of being another stranger and having nobody care about who I was and what I was doing. It was a new thing for me, but I didnt feel like I belonged there either.
When I move to Ottawa, I think that was really the first time I experienced a feeling of not belonging. Never in my life I had experience so greatly that a place was not for me, but I'm sure that was basically because my heart was somewhere else and home is where the heart is, right?
Now my home and my heart are in the same place. I feel like I belong there.

 

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