This Girl...She's Incredible

I Want An Update

 

Eeee! Alright. Today Elizabeth told me that she is bisexual. I was sooo excited! I said 'yay' and told her that I'm not exactly straight either. lol.

The only problem is...she's been flirting with my brother RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME.

Ergh. Anyways, the Battle of the Bands is this weekend and I'm going to invite her to come with me. Hopefully, my brother won't come. lol.

Well, I'll keep ya'll updated!

 

well that sucks that she is flirting with your brother but the stories are so sweet .... im bi-sexual but i've never really had much experiance with girls cant seem to get with one i like and likes me back so im kinda jealous right now but keep it up im sure you two will be together soon....

peace, love, happiness!

 

Oh my gosh. She...she really likes me.


I invited her to Battle of the Bands, and she called me and said she'd go. But, it was cancelled because the ampitheater is underwater because the river flooded. haha. But, we might go see a movie tomorrow.

She wrote this poem for me.

she thinks that i don't care
but i'm really always there
looking you in your eyes (oh how beautiful)
amazed by your beauty
but i just can't bear to say
the three words i want to say
if thats what you want to hear
for all these years thats all i've feared
"i love you"

Gosh, I love her so much.

 

If I were a film-maker by trade, I would already be starting a script for your movie....



....Isn't it beautiful?

 

It turns out the Battle of the Bands wasn't cancelled, yay! They had an alternate location.

We danced, and we walked along the traintracks holding hands. It was so much fun!! Time flies by when I'm with her. I wish I could relive today all over again.

I look into her eyes and all I can see is passion. I hear her voice and my stomach does summersaults. When she touches me -- electricity.

I love her so much!!

 

I just caught up on your unfolding tale of love. I haven't read here since earlier in the week.

It is so wonderful to see a love opening it's blossom. It is very generous of you to share this joyous experience with us.

Thank you Wildflower!

Enjoy this experience. It will be one that you will remember for the rest of your time in this life.

 

She kissed me on the cheek today!!!

 

YEY! I'm so happy for you!

 

go for the lips this time

 

Update?!

 

Rachel, I must say your story is very unique and special. Your karma must be really good, hehe. Be Happy

 

It's funny how life lifts you up as high as it can just so it can drop you.

Liz gave me a note today.

"Hey Rachel,

1 Corninthians 6:9-10
Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither the immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexual offenders, nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor robbers will inherit the kingdom of God.

All I'm saying is that, I feel that being "together" is drowning my faith. I went to a Christian concert and it made me realize that my relationship with my God is failing. I want to follow Christ and be with him in Heaven. We should fight the temptation. I want to see you in Heaven with me. Please don't hate me. Talk to me if and when you want to.

Liz"

::sigh:: She blocked me on AIM...and today she wouldn't even look at me. Like looking at me would send her to hell or something.

I don't know what to do. No offense to anyone who believes that...but i think it's a load of bullshit. I don't want her to torture herself...and that's what she's doing. She's denying herself of who she truly is.

I just...I don't even know what to say to her. I can't even form my thoughts into words for ya'll. I'm just...I'm just so...I don't know. I just feel numb right now. Like it's not real.

 

that's so sad. I'm so sorry to hear that. Life does things like that to you sometimes, but after a while, the pain goes away, and you will be able to feel much better. I know that's what everyone else says, but it's true.
She may be denying herself of who she is, but there's not really anything that you can do to change that. Just let her explore herself and this new found faith that she has. Sooner or later, she'll realize who she really is.
Just be glad that you know who you are, and feel good about that. There's many people who don't. That just shows that you're a strong person and will be able to get through this.
As for her not wanting to look at you or talk to you right now, just give her time and space, as hard as it is. Wait until she's ready, or else she'll just run further away.
Just give it time. I wish you all the luck and good fortune in the world.

 

Well sweetie, I don't know what to say except I'm really sorry this had to happen. Count on misinterpreted organized religion to screw everything up eh? You are only 14 so take it for what its worth and remember that theres plenty of fish in the sea. I know that advice sucks right after a crisis but once the wound is scarred over it begins to click.

 

Of course, using that it would take quite a bit for you & her to keep yourselves from the pearly gates. Well, I suppose you could start having substance abuse issues together or eventually get married (may have to be other people, like males, depending on how quickly things progress on that issue) then commit adultry, all the time abusing people & spreading gossip. Well, the fornicators you could do I suppose but she is going to have to keep from having sex with boys too not to do that one. She can't blame just you for that one. It also sounds like you are suppose to act butch. HMMMM, how interesting she is quoting something to breake up with a lesbian relationship that says that you are suppose to act butch, now that's unique.Now, I know that you weren't involved in extortion or theft.
Hey, did you & her start making any golden cows or other things like that to worship? I bet that's it, isn't it?

Now that I hopefully have cheered you up, maybe even a little. I have to say that this sucks. It is so sad when people break up for stupid reasons. I suppose it is entirely possible that she got scared by this same kind of homophobic propaganda or maybe this propaganda event itself.

As has been said. Give her her space, stay friendly when she does talk to you. Maybe she will realize that this is illogical. I'm so sorry that this happened to you. You do have time to find someone who is right for you. Knowing who you are at this stage in life is a great advantage. Keep your chin up, as the saying goes.

 

You know what I just realized? That basically anyone who's even gone to high school probably won't "inherit the kingdom of god."

 

She actually talked to me today. She asked me if I was mad at her, and I said no. I'm not mad at her, I think I'm just mad at the fact that she actually thinks being gay is wrong. I mean, I am really upset. And the whole time she was talking to me I just wanted to reach out and kiss her. But...I just have to control myself. I want to stay friends with her. And I'll just let her figure this whole thing out for herself. I sense that she still likes me. And, maybe, we'll get back together some day. But, until then, I'll just wait.

I like her too much to be mad at her, or stop being friends with her. I really like her...alot. I'm just going to wait and see if she comes to her senses.

 

lol, thats very true.

I'm so sorry that things have gone like they have for you. I've been completely in love with this story of yours from the beginning. I feel gutted for you. Hopefully she will come to her senses and make the right choice, but if she doesn't then although you don't want to hear it, it's true there are plenty more fish in the sea. I do know how you feel, I've been there. It hurts a lot but you just have to remember that there's going to be plenty more chances for you to find someone who will want you despite what society or fucking religion say.
Anyways good luck, any time you want to rant/be angry/get depressed im always open to listen.

c u l8r

 

1) the immoral? we are human, and every single person who has ever walked the earth (except Jesus) is immoral in gods eye, from the Pope to ur own grandmother. So that would condime every single person on earth to hell.
2) Those r Pauls words not Jesus. He never spoke of Homosexuality
3) Homosexual offenders and homosexuals r not one in the same, kinda like comparing Catholics to Protestants. Homoseual offenders were basically considered rapists not homosexuals themselves.
4) (and most importantly) whenever they read verses 9 and 10 they usually dont like reading verse 11:
But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.
So id say that u r safe as long as u believe in Jesus. and tell Liz this so it might give her some confidence, because trust me, if that verse was true, not a single person would enter heaven.