today

last nite was the weirdest nite ever.
it feels kinda surreal now that i think about it.

 

i'd like to know what was so surreal about it

 

everything i did was so out of character.. and everything that happend was so strange and random..


i really shouldnt drink bad things happen

 

i'm not even sure now... i just decided not to smoke for a while... and i haven't for like a month.

i wanted to calm down a bit, because i was smoking a lot in january, during the winter break... and i passed out once, not because of weed, but because of low blood pressure and insomnia, but anyway... it would be bad to pass out again and to be taken to a doctor who will find out about the weed... i hope this made sense, because it didn't to me...

i think i want weed...

you know what's the weirdest thing? i have 4 joints..,

 

thats why i havent drank in over a year alchohols fun till it gets the best of ya...course now, i really would like a drink or three

that sucks =/

but at least you have 4 joints! so when your in the right mood to smoke, you will always have them

i've kind of decided not to smoke that much anymore...last time i smoked, after i wasnt high, i become just utterly depressed, and didnt like the way i felt...i think it was cause i didnt have a person to talk to

 

the world is upside down
i decided to smoke if i have the chance...depends on how i can get passed my losing control phobia...

 

i thought about loosing control, too... but i don't think i can really loose control when i'm high on weed...

but i don't like much the idea of taking anything else... maybe some day... the only thing i would like to try soon is acid... and when i say soon i mean summer!

 

acid is one fun thing to try make sure your with really good people u trust your first time though

 

last night was just really weird...
i called someone i really want to meet,
and who i really like
and i was like okay i'm gonna say
how i feel and all of that
and i got all nervous about it
and than i didnt have to say that
cuz that person said all the things
i wanted to say but didnt dare to say
and than i got this letter and a picture
i was waiting for for a long time
and i was soooooooooooooo happy
still am, just insanely happy
but i got the flu and i'm sneezing
and feeling sick and i got a headache
but still i'm happy.
and i have this weird feeling that anything can happen
and if chuck norris would stand infront of me naked
i'd think it was completely normal.