well here goes nothing

Good luck with that bro. I've been itching to start growing some San Pedros myself actually, would LOVE to mediate for long years by one and then eat it at a proper time. Truly profound stuff I imgaine that would bring.
But yea I hear you on the purging, I mean I never puked but I once had a bad session on mushrooms over my morphine abuse. So I know where your coming from

 

thanks man.

when i'm at school, i will not be at liberty to trip often by any means.

i've heard that san pedro is a very easy cactus to grow

if my experience with the cactus brew is a good one, i will certainly look into how to care for the cactus and cultivate it. if it is easy enough to keep as a houseplant, i will get a small potted san pedro to keep with me in my dorm. that way i will have a psychedelic companion, a friend sort of, which would be good for me even if i were not taking it.

sort of like a spiritual gaurd dog for me or something plus its inconspicuous enough that nobody would suspect a thing, especially if i'm not cutting it up and eating it

 

aaaah, i just spent a while at the resevoir, my old haunt.

smoked a very nice cigar, relaxed, walked around in the woods, went to the clay beach. the water is very high. i watched the waves gently splashing up against the shore, watched the town on the other side of the resevoir, listened to birds, enjoyed the sunshine, and just generally meditated on everything around me.

i have broken my fast, though i haven't stuffed myself.

i feel calm and collected. i feel clean and happy, and connected to the earth.

this really was a great trip!

 

That sounds beautiful Mother Nature, our Love, is the fabric of our reality

 

it was very nice, though its a bit chilly currently.

i would have enjoyed it even more, but i have a very, very limited wardrobe currently as my belly has exceeded the limits of most of my old clothes. i am wearing my -only- pair of jeans, and as much as i wanted to sit on the ground and just watch the water and the clouds, or sit in the woods and listen to the birds and insects, i felt it would be better to try and keep my clothing clean.

i intend to spend a lot more time there than last year, though. it will help keep my mind even, and it will help keep me in better shape (even just walking around in the woods and climbing trees and just playing outdoors is good enough exercise so long as i stop drinking so much and eat better foods than i have been!)

i anticipate a few joints and maybe even a trip out there this summer

 

Just wanted to pop in an say that grapefruit juice has for a while now been proven to potentiate most drugs, both recreational and medicinal.

LSD and shrooms are no exception, and the way it works is quite simple.

The only thing people don't remember is that you have to eat alot of grapefruit at least the day before for it to have the effect; eating grapefruits while dropping L will indeed not affect it (greatly).

 

nesta i hope you succeed on kicking the drinking. my dad got cerosis and believe me its painful to watch, and my dad pays for it every day for the rest of his life. he used to be a fantastic athlete and i luckly inherited that trait from him.

but both of my parents have addictive behaviors to alcohol which is something i unfortunitly also inherited so i vow to never drink only if the ocassion calls for it andto nothing is over done. hes in his early 50s and hes lucky be alive. its hard on yourself and everyone who loves and cares about you to see something like that happen. gl.