What Are/Have You Been Doing Today.?

Want to buy a new dress and shoes I've seen but being unemployed stops me. A new friend is dicking about with my CV and she's sent me hers to look at along with some agencies to apply to.

I feel constantly angry these days I'm just.. Angry all of the time. I'm angry that I live where I do, I'm angry at my husband for making me live where we do, I'm angry that I can't go home, at angry that my dog died, I'm angry with myself.

I seriously hate my life. I never thought I would but I do, every time I try and change things for the better it just gets worse.

On the plus side the tax man gave us £485 that we overpaid them a couple of years ago. Works out about the same amount we'd have gotten paid from our first week if we'd have stayed on so saving that to have a somewhat decent Christmas, as I can't see me getting a job between now and then and not for lack of trying.

 

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I'm with you HDH. I'm angry as shit today.
Randy has declared mom and I need to move out unless she pays him in money and sex each week. Mom says she'll move into the spare room and her and I will 'shut off our emotions' for 8 months so I can finish the school year here. I told her I don't want to live in a house where I'm forced to be emotionless and ignored and tip toe about King Randy all while having to listen to mom cry herself to sleep in the room next to mine each night.
Apparently pretending to be happy > finding happiness.

But the part I'm angry about is that this same exact thing has happened a few times before. When I first joined the forums I had just moved to my dads house after mom and Randy broke up the first time. Only a few weeks after her getting an apartment Randy sucked her back in. Then they broke up again and she moved back here, and only after a few weeks of renting a house she went to stay with Randy again. Then they broke up and mom moved back here. Then school ended for me and mom moved back in with Randy, and for some reason I thought it was a good idea to move in too. A few weeks in mom declared she was leaving Randy again, but never left. A few short months later Randy has told us again to leave.

Fucking idiots, all of them. I'd gladly move back in with Dad but his house is full.

The thing I'm possibly most pissed off about is moving the fucking furniture. Its a lot of work

 

Today I went for an 8 mile walk around Warwickshire (Stockton), lots of muddy fields, canal paths and woodland, great fun

 

been studying all day, I'm bored now

 

today i went to work, came home and did some work on my thesis, already close to a quarter of the way done and i feel pretty good about it

 

It appears to be slightly thicker, although I don't know. It did fit through the front however. Someone mentioned to try without a mirror, so I think I'll do that next time I give it a go. And yeah it's the first time I've tried to put it in, let alone take out the original stud on purpose.

Haha sweet :sunny:

Speaking of dreams I had my first lucid dream last night. It only lasted for a few seconds before I woke up. It seemed very similar to a wake induced one, as I've read that when your in that transition you can sometimes here all these loud noises and a feeling of like twirling. I woke up in the night, and remembered to try and give it a go. Started thinking about the dream I was just in, then in my mind I heard what sounded like an 'explosion' of crashing and banning, and could feel that sort of twirling sensation, until I was back into the dream. Once I was back in though I just lost it and either woke back up or lost lucidity.

 

Cameron, do try it with a mirror, helps so much

Had a really good morning in the hotshop, made 4 or 5 no-hitch pieces! One of my most successful days ever! I'm *in the zoone*

Just made a batch of leek and potato soup, and for once it's not brown! I skinned the potatoes, so it's a nice awesome green ! Green soup is green

 

just read this page and had some advice for people

Firstly HDH, your clearly unhappy with your relationship, i dont understand why your still with him, i cant remember if you said before if your relationship with parents is bad but if it's ok, move home, get happy get a new job, otherwise move in with friends, i've read too many unhappy posts from you, i think you need a change and so do you

Sarah, how old are you? i know it's not ideal but perhaps there is a way you can get your own place to finish out your school. your mother needs help perhaps you leaving will give her the wake up call she needs

Hugs for both of you guys, i like the two of you

seems to me this forum has become a lot more important to it's posters than it was originally intended its like a virtual diary with an advice column, we're all here for you guys or at least i am if you want to talk

 

Definitely more than just dreadlocks in any case

That's how I tried, but I can't see shit anyway, even with a torch. Stupid nose hair

I wish you two, Sarah and HDH, the best of luck in finding some more happiness in your lives at the moment also. And to anyone else who needs it

 

In my dream last night I kept finding dead bodies. One was a guy who had slit his own throat. Another was a woman who had done the same. I think it signifies change in my life. I feel like in a sense the old me is dying (in a positive light) and a new more spiritually centered me is being birthed.

*cheers*

To new beginnings.

 

Yea, more than DL ^^

Nooo not for inside your schnozz. Use the mirror to see were the ring is from the out side. If you press on the surface on the inside you'll see the outside move, that's how you know if you're close or not. It's a bastard the first time but keep at it, you'll get it ^^

I just had a fantastic day in the hotshop. I probably made about 15-20 pieces today! I ran out of room in the Lehr (annealing kiln) so I came home ^^ I've been so .. unproductive in the hotshop before today because I wasn't blowing properly (yes yes snigger snigger) but now I've got the bastarding hang of it I can gather, shape, blow and be ready for the next gather in under 30 seconds. That took about 2 minutes last year ¬¬ Yay for practice!!!! GAAH I LOVE GLASS *explode*

 

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I'm with you on this one mandy

 

salud

today i am avoiding doing any work.

 

Some pics from our walk

 

cool^ where are those boats?

 

Just behind the Blue Lias Inn in Stockton, Warwickshire. Bridge 23 of the grand union canal

 

is that the uk? americans don't know geography

 

Haha, yeah, in the West Midlands

http://maps.google.co.uk/maps?ie=UTF8&q=blue+lias+inn&fb=1&gl=uk&hq=blue+lias+inn&hnear=Coventry+CV1&cid=0,0,12119766385458792967&ei=V7zFTNPPDMq6jAevrpy6BQ&ved=0CBwQnwIwAQ&t=h&z=16&iwloc=A

 

I thought Warwickshire was the next county to my county. So English people don't know geography either