What Are You Afraid Of?

Yup. Yup. That Pat person was too scary for me to bare.

 

Um, just some random pains in my lower abdomen, among other places. I'm actually just getting over a really bad flu, and was feeling pretty achey from that. I was also hitting the gym really hard before i got sick, so some of the pain was also muscular as a result of my probably overdoing it a bit with the weights.

It is just my fear that I've got something brewing and it will be overlooked, until it's too late.

How did you find out you had precancerous cells?

 

I went to the doctor for something unrelated and was 'encouraged', more like forced to get my annual pap smear. I hadn't gotten one for three years before that. So, I did and they found something that they wanted to get a biopsy for. They did and found that it was precancerous cells. So, I had to do a pap smear every six months rather than a year for about two years, until one day they told me my body cleaned them out. So, now I'm back to once a year pap smear. I do, however have a fibroid. Just a small one. It does cause pain at times. But, I can't be bothered getting surgery about it.

 

That's mine. Not of death but leaving him behind to deal with his mothers side of the family lol

But then again, if we are all conscience and vibrating matter held together through imagination and perceived will; wouldn't everything seize to exist anyway? Rhetorical lol

 

i'm afraid of this idea, that if we don't keep everything screwed up, we'll run out of things to bitch about,
and how people either don't realize or don't want to know, how far it can go, and seems to be going.

i mean that IS what happened, for there to have been a hitler and all that came from that.
and you know, it isn't germany or china or russia this time around, its the u.s. itself.

and i don't mean a few loose nuts like the bundyites, though they're a symptom,
but the tea nazis in state legislatures, who are owned by corporate economic interests,
which automatically have no morals about what they destroy, but only concern themselves with the task of concentrating symbolic wealth.

getting people to think they're fighting something by supporting it,
and then of course blaming someone else.
hitler blamed the jews, and everyone else who wasn't his flavor of waspism,
well you have the same thing with the tea nazis, only this time its the islamists.
and again everyone who isn't their flavor of wasp.

you'd think most people could see where it lead to then,
well i think most people do, but there's this tug of war,
between consent of the governed, and the influence of economic interests, as their called.
well at least they're not suggesting the banks are controlled by islamists,
which is one thing, everyone can see they're controlled by wasps,
not jews, nor muslims nor lizards from outer space.

 

I get a pap every year. Can it detect ovarian cancer?

I was also ovulating this week, perhaps that explains the pain in my ovaries?

 

No (well, very rarely), and yes .

 

The depths of the oceans, and the distance between the stars. It is of course irrational but sometimes I can't shake the feeling that if I think too intently about either one I will suddenly find myself there.

 

I am afraid of being on ladders, even at a fairly low height, but scrambling across a crumbling shale wall in the Niagara gorge doesn't bother me. Sometimes I worry that I will intentionally jump, even though I have no conscious desire to do so.

 

I wouldn't know that, sorry. But, I'm sure you can request the test to be done. Honestly, I don't know what a pap smear checks for. That's why I normally avoid them. Even after the experience I still avoid them. I just think they're a waste of time, money, resources, and effort. Maybe I'm the opposite of a hypochondriac. I just think every year get this done and get a breast exam, meh. Too much work. However, if I had intercourse six months prior, which is how long it takes for HIV to show up, from my knowledge, then I do a pap smear alongside a blood test. You know those dirty boys. They're icky. So, I'll have to be doing that soon, because December was the last time I was sexually active.

 

But it is a cool ride.

 

people

not all of them, but many of them

 

Mice and rats. I have an unreasonable fear of those two rodents.

 

Never really had any fears but I find a fear of heights is creeping up on me over the last few years (I'm 43). If I watch the videos on Youtube of people base jumping or climbing radio towers my legs turn to absolute jelly.

 

a culture that would even consider, entrusting any kind of authority, to someone who walks and talks and acts like donald chump, i can't imagine how anything could be scarier then that.
this is what you get, when people are taught to hate logic, and equate thoughtlessness with freedom.

and i know this is going to sound ironic as all bloody hell, but this is actually what i believe every religion was invented to try and prevent.
and of course, in very short order, as we all know, they all (or rather i should say the most popular and dominant of them) get perverted into making excuses for instead.
(some east asian and most indigenous beliefs, appear to have mostly escaped that fate)

which if anything, proves to me, that a well meaning god, is not in charge of, nor responsible for, any of them.

and yes, there could still be one, that is not at issue here.

we could be living in a world where people didn't need to fear anything other then a lack of good sense.
that people seem to think its more important to try and impress each other by how well they can imitate each other, just makes no kind of sense.

 

On a more serious note I am definitely afraid of needles. I get very tense and anxious when I get vaccines; I can't even watch anyone receive a vaccine it creeps me out so much.

I've had an allergic reaction to a yellow fever vaccine for my trip to Ecuador. And I've had local anesthetics injected into me that hurt like hell (hand and private parts).

When I had surgery on my finger a year ago, I freaked out when the nurse stuck an IV needle into my arm.

 

oh yeah, i forgot about needles. those things are just awful. i can't watch them either.

i always found them creepy. but it's only been made worse by several unpleasant experiences with them. in high school i tried giving blood 3 times; the first two i couldn't bleed enough to fill the bag, it just flowed really slowly into it for a long time, and then stopped altogether long before there was enough to even use. finally the third time i actually filled the bag, and then i got super nauseous and almost passed out. and turned green, from what i'm told. then, i think the only time i've been poked with a needle as an adult was one time they gave me novocaine for a cavity, and i had a terrible reaction to it and almost threw up in the dentist chair.

 

For those of you who are afraid of needles you’d love the military


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i do hate needles, but that doesn't even make the list of reasons i don't want a military career..

 

Ok I can understand how you might not like the idea carrying a gun and killing the enemy, but you’d be surprised just how many girls are drawn to the uniform

...............And no not like the movie ‘An Officer and a Gentlemen’ most of these girls are only interested in fucking presumably ‘the best of the best’



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