What Are You/Have You Been Doing Today.?

grew out this really sweet mustache cause all the super cool kids are doin it.

 

HAha xD I can't even work out if thats real or fake 0.o

 

That's awesome! I had an internet friend tell me last night she dreamed we were riding motorcycles together and went out for breakfast. I love crazy dreams.

 

LOL that is crazy! I think it involved a pub too gah wish I could remember it but it was 5 days ago or so

 

NM

 

yeah i'm on pristiq right now, been on it about 6 months now. i was on an SSRI for about a year when i was younger, after being sort-of-diagnosed with bipolar (lol?).. something happened which prompted my mum to take me to the doctor, who then referred me to an emergency psych, who is the one who sort-of-diagnosed me. she only saw me once because it was a government funded thing and i apparently wasn't enough of an emergency case. so she didn't want to commit to a 'diagnosis' i guess. anyway. the SSRI fucking sucked. all the numbness crap. i found it really confusing- i didn't know how to act in social situations anymore because i couldn't figure out how i felt. in the past my emotions had been so extreme that i didn't know how to interpret moderate feelings. also, who wants to feel numb? same issues with creativity too. BUT at that point i needed something to get me through.

ditto everything that you said.

since taking the SSRI when i was a teenager i've learned a LOT of coping mechanisms to help me manage my depression. all the things you mentioned. having a good diet makes the biggest difference for me. and i still go through bad patches, and some a little TOO high highs, but like you say, it's manageable. but something terrible happened in my life which sort of derailed me. and i resisted for a long time but after 8 months of living nocturnally and weeping every day and sleeping on my mums couch i decided i didn't quite have things under control lol. anyway pristiq is an SNRI and it's been so much fucking better than the SSRI. it just feels milder? like i still FEEL things. it messes with my sleep though. makes me fairly insomniacal (that a word? .. should be). but apart from that just makes everything a little more manageable. it still sucks to be on it, but for now it's better than the alternative.

i really hope your medication works out for you. if you ever want to talk about any of your crap i am great at listening/reading and not judging. i really should get to austin for that first thursday thing or whatever it is and we can have a cup o' tea/ pint/ spliff

i find almost all people to be a bit of a fucking effort

 

todaaaay i have been signed off work for another 2 weeks, so i shall be productive

 

Today I'm sitting in class right now in fact checking the internet on my iPod cause I'm so dammed bored my lecturer has decided not to give us a break in this 3 hour lecture so he can show us plenty of clips from the French poetic realism movement

 

writing a research presentation on the amerikkkan progressive movement

 

Woke up, had a cuppa green tea, did some stretches, walked my dog, blasted some Gogol Bordello while I did my cardio, ate some homemade granola with yogurt and berries, took my vitamins and smoker's cleanse supplements, prepped my lunch and now I'm about to go to work. After work, I'm gonna hit the gym and start my weight training program, pick up some healthy food for dinner and treat myself to a luxurious bubble bath. So far I have gone 13 hours without a cigarette and I feel pretty good about it.

 

im WAY too happy.. i just found a website that sells boxes and gift bags =D im stupidly happyyyyyyyyyyyy

 

flying to auckland today! meeting up with sunberry and buttons and sleeping on her couch like a hobo. there will be photos, i'm sure!

 

But your homemade boxes are so sweet! I have kept both of mine you sent me

Today I got into uni at half 11 or something, made 3 vases, then went into town, when I got back I didn't really do anything till 5... Note self: Town = tired. Bf has gone to see some friends of ours and I'm not sure if his phone is working so I'm feeling a little lost as what to do tonight, lol. Presentation tomorrow so I probably should get on with sketchbook work.. Hm. Food time.

 

Today has been a grumble day. I even had to break two screens to get into my house. Not good. It really can only get better.

 

today... i had class and i had to get a document notarized at the bank.

and i got a text from the girl telling me she's not pregnant and she just got her period. im so happy! having a prego scare sucks, for nearly 3 weeks i've been counting the days until her period. fucking condom broke, thats the last time i buy trojan.


i have painting class later, sweeeet

 

TrojanzRlame

I haven't done shit today... :sifone: ... but I should probably go work out or something so I can be ripped like Jesus too

 

has your gf ever heard of birth control. geez. condoms yuck.
...:leaving:

 

Volunteered in my lil ones class, went jogging down by the lake..nearly had an asthma attack cuz Im really outta shape. Then I went to Whole foods and got some dinner stuff and EmergenC packets cuz Im also feelin a bit under the weather. Went home, washed my hair...then palm rolled for the first time in about 5 months! Gawd what a upper arm work out that is! Then started packing shit...moving again...then picked up the lil one and have been packing and taking loads of stuff to our new place. Im exhausted now. Could really go for a massage, chai tea and a feel -good movie.

 

she can't be on birth control because she is ballerina and she says its gonna fuck with her weight... which is definitely bad because she has to look small next to skinny ballet guys and waif ballet girls.


i have to write two papers now, ughghghg

 

eww... fuck bc.

pulling out ftw