Confusion Indecisiveness Paranoia. I've always got an overagtive imagination, and it really must hate me, because I always imagine bad stuff happening to me.
I would say anxiety and helplessness. I feel those a lot lately. I can force myself to get over anxiety, sometimes. But I feel really helpless right now. Like there's nothing at all I can do to change my life. And part of it is my fault, and part of it isn't... and then I feel guilty because I think I could change things if I wanted to, but I can't because there's stuff in the way...
The feeling I get when I hear my name called over the loudspeaker at work. At that point I know I have to get off my ass, duck out of whatever conversation I am having at the moment, and shop for alcohol for someone else. I guess I must be doing pretty well now if this is the worst thing I can complain about.
"I Failed" hate those words. Dont matter what it is. I want to be on top. I dont want to be number one, i just want to be on top.
take a walk and look at the stars, if it doenst help do someting you used to do that you enjoyed. If that doesnt help, take another walk.
the helplessness of being surrounded and dominated by tyrannically arbitrary gratuitous conventionality. and it really is JUST as oppressive, what EVER idiology or economic theory is used as an excuse for it. having to live with and be dependent in any way upon even one total loonie. and really the only time/way i haven't felt to some degree one or the other or both, is when i was a strainger in a strainge land, living where i didn't know anybody and nobody, really knew me. or at least i was able to feel that way. =^^= .../\...
annonymity is freedom. conventionality is tyranny. and hierarchy doesn't need to be attacked (so it can attack back which it will), but simply not supported (which will, eventually, resault in its colapse). =^^= .../\...