So much: My optimism - Lost it after years of bad luck My uncle - Barely knew him, he was handicapped and the hospital kept his death a secret My faith in god - Lost it after seeing so many two-faced people and misery around me My trust - I don't trust anyone, and that's because I've been betrayed so much. The Worst: My first love - We became friends in high school, we got close, I fell in love with her, and we lost contact when I left school. I'm still not over her three years later. She was so incredible. Hard to believe I'll ever have that again. Just a few things, so many to name