I just thought of something. What if during one of my psychedelic school trips, I was asked to like, stand up in front of the class and do an oral report or something? That would have been awkward.
class clown. and hung out with the random group of friends. who had like one of every single stereotype in our group of friends. lol. for serious.. we were the most random bunch of people ever. the average kids. we weren't losers, cause people loved us, but we weren't popular either... so i guess we were the average kids. lol.
never really thought about the clique thing when I was in school...I guess you would say I was nothing..I had plenty of friends who were nothing also..and there were people that moved around us, but they were luminous beings that moved at a rapid speed, but if you turned your head a certain way you were able to catch a glimpse of them.
I was friend's with everyone and very well known for getting along with everyone and never having problems with anybody. I loved them all, but that doesnt mean I liked them all. Ana was the one person, who I really hung out with, we were both kinda silly and crazy and in our own little world. The way schools are in DR, is that all the grades, from elementary to high school are in the same place, so in the mornings before going into class we would always sit and talk to the little kids, who were WAY more interesting than the people in our grade haha. I'm starting to miss my school days and especially Ana, we are still really good friends and when I was back home for the holidays I did get to spend some time with her, but I miss her. We would always be together, EVERYDAY, she would bitch at me when I was skipping school too much and call me "ILIANA!!! PLEAAAASE, COME TO SCHOOL. I'M SO FUCKING BORED". It's hard to explain how we really were, you just kinda had to be there. In addition, there was this repressed gay kid who I always got into crazy arguments with. He could drive anyone crazy, there was this very very girl, we used to be really good friends when I was younger. Until I discovered the fun of simpler things and drugs , there was the slutty dumb girl (I love her, she's really nice, but that's the way it is), the nerdy girl stressing over everything, another good friend of mine Max, a stoner. Miguel who was supposed to graduate two years before of us and then all of a sudden ended up in our grade, who was always coked out and, him, Max, Ana and me would drink rum on our Midterms before our tests and have our own little party. I remember we once walked by a teacher and she was like "it smells like people have been drinking", I just replied "it does smell like people have been drinking" and kept walking. I'm gonna shut up, I can talk about forever about my school and the crazy people in it. There was really no clique, everyone was friend with anyone.
I never was a stereotype, so I was very lonely in school. And sadly that did not change with the years and I am still very lonely. I want to kill myself and perhaps even die.