What were you raised on?

Oh oh. What is so different about my outlook about the opposite sex?

Hehe.

 

Chicken and Corn...

 

Well, sometimes, I think you are extremely analytical and a little cynical of women's motives for things. I imagine that may well be caused by New York girls rather than Rio girls.

 

Fear
Education
Achievement
Manners
Family
Stick up for yourself
No one cares about you more than yourself.

 

Study hard.
Pray hard.
Work hard.
Dont party hard.

 

Um, partially. I always thought my human experience would have been richer had I stayed. Which is why I plan to return.

But it's not so much the girls I'm cynical about, but the New York nightlife --- which is deeply cynical to begin with. After a while you start seeing these patterns of interaction, and everything becomes predictable. Which is why I'm taking a step back from it now.

How about my outlook in general? How is it a "New York outlook?" Somehow I feel it's not gonna be complimentary.

 

Your outlook in general? I don't really know. Perhaps it could do with a few more rays of sunshine. And maybe a beach or two.

 

Hehe. THAT is the TRUTH!

I go to Rio and I immediately feel my muscles relax...

But Rio also has it's particular brand of cynicism. Brazilians hate us for it. It has to do with large cities in general. And large cities is all I know.

 

Large cities are so packed with humanity that it becomes extremely difficult to avoid the reality of fucked-up humans. Cynicism is a reflex action to having been let down by life.

Small towns also have their own brand of fuckedness but it's also a little easier to notice things other than humanity there. I dunno.

London made me a cynic. Getting out of there allowed me to feel more optimistic about life in general.

 

Interesting.

I tend to explain it more along the lines of superficial interactions. 99% of the people you share space with in big cities you'll never see again, you know?

How long were you London?

 

About 4.5 years on and off. Loved it at first and still sometimes miss the citylife, but I don't miss living there.

 

Where are you originally from?

Why did you leave?

Inquiring minds.

 

Dublin. Lived there till I was 22, almost. Left for something new. Escape the scummy suburb I was from and avoid following my friends to prison or life with a needle.

 

Wow. You got an interesting experience, red.

 

It's been fun. I haven't lived in Ireland since and don't go back that often either cos I sorta find it depressing. I don't think that I would live there again either. I'd miss the sun too much.

 

Don't you find it alienating?

Being a foreigner?

I always thought I'd go back to Rio. It's where I belong, despite it's obvious problems.

 

flesh of fresh car accident victims , milk and diesel , and Farleys Rusks.

Oh and cod liver oil tablets.One jar per day.

Any nutritionists here?

 

church
country music
god
mashed potatoes
jesus

 

Not really alienating. I do find it challenging somewhat but I'm sort of a chameleon. I can adjust and fit in.

I really want to see everything. And I find Ireland, despite some of it's amazing charateristics, narrow-minded and unchallenging.

I condsider myself way more human than I do Irish. My nationalistic instincts(or lack of them) would make my ancestors turn in their graves. I mean I am Irish but I don't feel an affinity to all things Irish just because of that.

 

I am not very nationalitistic, more like nostalgic.

I also feel more brazilian the older I get. It's like certain cultural traits and experiences I possess are beyond revision.