When I've had a little too much caffeine and I'm rolling through work. I'm basically a manic person most of the time anyway, but the thing is, when I'm jacked up I like me. I'm productive, I'm happy! And I can split a BUTTLOAD of firewood or frame half of a house in a day.
I think I got that thread wrong... what you meant by "whole"... did you mean it... "truly like yourself"... like... genuine? True to you, 1oo%? Well if that's what you meant then, I feel this way all the time. ALL OF IT. NOW I do... years ago.... I had phases when I wasn't myself... it's complicated... I had nervous issues... and sometimes I did stuff that myself as who I truly am would have never done, but I was so hurt I didn't realize what I was doing... all that's complicated and I should probably not leave it at that... but I will anyway....