When Was Your Last Truly Happy Day

I worry all the time my life consist of putting everyone first its like I don't wanna fight so I suck it up and go with it I am not living I guess only time I'm really happy is when I get the house to myself doesn't happen that often I love being around my nieces its like when I visit them and pick them up from school they tell me how there day was even then i'm not happy I think there auntie is a unhappy person when I said good bye to them I feel sad

 

most of my days are a tiny bit to the happy side of completely neutral, and that suites me just fine.
i mean right now that i don't have as much to worry about as i did most of my adult life.

i just wish the people (drunks i assume) i hear bitching out their ghosts and the top of their lungs,
walking by on the other side of the street two blocks away,
could happier lives, or something, so i wouldn't have to listen to them.

 

All my days are good. Especially now that my contract is almost up and there is essentially no work for me to do. Today I cut out an hour early to run errands.

My wife and I just finished a big arabic feed, and will go for a dip in the pool once it get a little cooler outside.

 

My baseline mood is content...although I have anxiety so I do have various neurotic, stressful moments throughout the day every day.

But I am rarely unhappy unless I have a real reason to be.

There are a few days that stand out in my mind as really blissfully happy from beginning to end and it has been a while since I've experienced a day like that, but for the most part I am on the happy side of neutral like themnax said.

 

I think lots of people say they are happy. But are they?

To me, happy means going around absolutely buzzing, from the moment I wake up. Like I've just scored the winning goal in a cup final type of thing.
Its not being 90% happy or being told "you must feel really pleased/fortunate about having all those things".

 

Earlier this year when I was working my way up in a positron that was leading to an dream job. After leaving behind a shitty job working 12 hour night shifts outdoors in the cold I vowed never to return, I was truly happy. Until the company defunded and cancelled my design/engineering project due to the high expenses, leaving me with nothing.

Another time I was truly happy was when I fell in love for the first time back in 2007. I truly thought this girl was the answer to my emptiness. That was until she left me and my heart in shatters.

Honestly, these two instances of happiness didn't last very long. And it honestly seems like whenever I attain happiness, it gets taken away from me very quickly

 

might sound pretty messed up...but...its been so long ago i dont remember when my last truly happy day was

 

I was happy for two or three hours on the morning of January 15th 2016.

 

LOL

I am basically a happy person and basically a sad person, too, so it is whatever side wins each day....

There are moments of each every day....but my basic nature is pretty happy.

 

I'm not a disgruntled type. I just have a very challenging time with the other occupant of my house.

 

The hurdle for me is to not let the bastards or bitches get you down......and let them roll off......It is taking me some learning on how to do that, though.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3yAW1daYXD4

 

Ahhh, getting older


My happy days now come when i get to have a couple of naps

 

Having Ups and downs at the Mo :unsure: Does It have to be a Full day cos I will probably have to go back a long way
But there was Five Minutes Today Watching My Granddaughter Sleep on My knee , After we had Been Playing
I was King of Happiness Then and would not have swapped places with anyone on earth

 

That's so sweet, Mally! I'm glad you have her in your life and that she has you in hers.

 

Here's to happy moments.

Grab one when you can.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r1TpeMt8aF4

 

Oh, super! Is it time for a happy song yet?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ZEURntrQOg

 

I'm pretty happy at the moment. It doesn't really take much to make me happy. I'm the kind of guy who would get thrilled if someone were to play peek-a-boo with me.

 

Yeah...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=siMFORx8uO8&list=PL8TPiGHZkEpQDitxC8GvCJjniYaFn93GQ

 

I know another should not be your reason for happiness but being without them sure can be a reason for unhappiness.

I've been happy for a couple of years at at time. Then things happen. People change. Circumstances change.

I don't think happiness was ever supposed to be a permanent thing for me.

Who chose this existence for me; and why? What's the fucking lesson supposed to be?

I've been schooled enough.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hH_j_GjNKaY&list=PL8TPiGHZkEpRpaVjaOyWKn_SS4XIhzQa8

 

Sometimes it's the humbling things that make me happy. Today I spent another day at the goat farm burning in the sun and taking care of goats. Cleaning barn, trimming hooves and making sure they have plenty of water. I tend to really enjoy just doing physical stuff that doesn't require a lot of political bullshit. I also feel good when I go on really long walks but not as good as helping someone. Helping someone is very rewarding and spending quality time with people that are kind.