Who is this little guy?

hmmm...a mental menage a trois. Well, I suppose at my age that is the only menage a trois I'm gonna get...lol...

 

I believe I tried something at one time with you and I came up against a real protective male energy. Remember?

 

I had this vague recollection of you trying with me or me with you - yes, I do remember now. And I have no idea how or why, cuz I'm sure not aware of male energy - a helluva lot of female energy tho, which goes without saying. Try it again, dear, and see if the situation has changed. If you're feeling up to it.

 

oops! am i interrupting something?

 

not at all...c'mon in

 

I suppose I should maybe pick up some garbage and dust the furniture if I'm going to be having guests...naw, on second thought, it's all part of the show...

 

okay. thanks. i'll just try to answer zen's queries and then leave you two (3?) to your fun. i won't be trying any remote voyeurism but i'd be interested to know if you guys manage to ... um ... connect.

 

"Hook up?" LOL Well I dunno from my end...I thought I was sensing windy's presence a few times when I thought about it. But if she is visiting, she's a pretty quiet visitor...maybe she's trying to get her bearings, could be tough...

 

well, whatever is being "done" to me is being "done" to them too. it's just they seem to have a better understanding of the whys and wherefores.

yeah, we're guided or steered into certain kinds of scenario creating thought patterns (with accompanying visuals). and it's durng these working scenarios that the topic of my "position" may come up. like if i perform what is apparently an impressive vibrational manuver the scenario will abruptly end and one (usually the less than patient guy) will say "see?! see?! that's why you are what you are". problem is ... i don't see. i don't see what the big deal is, why what i did was impressive. i merely act on reflex, instinct, intuition.

and yeah, i'm prodded for opinions but i prod them too. it's not that they nag exactly but they always seem ready to pounce on what they consider evidence of whatever it is they're looking for in me. then they point to this supposed evidence and i'm apparently suppose to see something in it. i'm like **shrug** "yeah? and so?". they seem to be trying to get me to see myself as they see me. i may be able to momentarily view their physical surroundings through their eyes but i can't see what they see when they're looking at my Id. my puzzlement is complete.

 

lol well, if your head is anything like my mate's room ... good luck to her.

 

The changing weather is one of the worst aspects - so far there haven't been any storms since I gave my invitation...

So since windy seems to be laying low for the time, I'm going to stick my neck out a bit and talk about what I'm sensing when I think about her. Interesting combination...hmmm, I'm having trouble focusing, there seems to be someone thinking about me right now who keeps flashing in my mind...anyway the thing about windy that struck me at first was a combination of reserve or even slight shyness with a more recently added layer of self-assurance and strength, and a pervading kind of sweetness and love. Me like, windy. You are quite welcome to hang around if you like. I think I just heard "I'll do that," but maybe I'm just making all this up. LOL

 

lol nope. wasn't me. maybe your imp, Deana, is playing trix on you. i wonder how you can trust any mental phenom you might experience with such a trickster in your head.

or perhaps i've gotten wrong impression of your relationship with her.

 

Oh, no, dormouse, not you - windy. But yes, Deanna and her hag sisters do play tricks on me, so yeah, I never know for sure unless I get external confirmation of some sort. I notice windy is rather quiet here so far today... I fear that Deanna may have already made her part of the evil borg...

But by the same token - how can you trust your mental phenoms? Well of course, you don't - you take it all with a grain of salt. That's pretty much what I do too. I know that what I experience of Deanna is what she wants me to experience, because she gave me enough external confirmations some years ago when I was seeing her in person all the time to show me it was "real." And there are some things she says in my mind that I trust more than other things. When I'm genuinely concerned about someone's safety I have found her mental information on the subject to be trustworthy...though I always have some degree of doubt, even so.

BTW I'm going to respond to your earlier post about your current mental workshop experience, but I want to think about it some more. Very interesting stuff...

 

hey zengizmo? do you use the name "zengizmo" as a self indentifyer in your internal communications?

 

Nope, I certainly do not. On the extremely rare occasions when my psychic cohorts use a name at all, they use my given name.

Well of course there was a time years ago that I got a different psychic appellation. In those days I used to listen to my hags Mia and Dani talking about me out loud in Dani's cubicle at work, but never using my actual name. I told them telepathically that they always referred to me as "he" and "him." After that I started to notice that in telepathic conversations, Mia had taken to calling me "Him." LOL Then she got affectionate and called me "Himmie" - as in "Good Himmie." I got doggie treats. Still do sometimes.

 

What is the practical application of your vibrational maneuvers? Is this the sort of thing you could use to affect another person's life experience in some way?

 

i was just wondering because one of my imaginary friends asked "what the fuck is a "zengizmo?" i answered "an online friend. why?" he said "oh okay. I was curious."

i guess he picked up the "zengizmo" from my mind out of context.

 

If he asks again you can explain that Zen applies to sentient beings with souls, and a gizmo is a clever little mechanical or electronic device, so obviously a zengizmo is a clever little device (biological in my case) that is a sentient being that (I assume) has a soul.

 

i don't see any practical application for such manuvers. i'm not even seeing any pragmatic use for this whole inner weirdness. if i don't get some resolution soon i'm gonna shut the whole thing down and tell them all to go take a long imaginary walk off a short imaginary pier. the entertainment value is wearing thin.

 

Good luck with that...I'll be curious as to whether you succeed, if it comes to that.