Why am i such a pussy

lmao.
when i had to call places like that,
i would think out what i had to say, and i would write it down so i could just read it real fast and get it over with haha

 

i hate calling business'. I will avoid calling places to ask if they have something or calling a place to set up and appointment or meeting. I will not do it. I have phone anxiety. I will gladly text over calling any day.

 

YES. I do that too. Everyones just like "why don't you just listen to them and answer the questions, there is no need to plan everything out like that", they just don't get it. Mmmm gotta love anxiety, I hate how I get sooo worked up over stupid shit like that but i've been really lost in Spain before with no money or phone and I was totally fine? Silly silly.

 

i'm reluctant to order a pizza over the phone

 

I'd much rather do anything face to face with the person. I feel like over the phone people don't understand what I'm saying and I can't express anything through body language so I just assume they think I'm stupid or an asshole.

 

what's gg?

 

@Sara and Bailey and everyone else who apparently suffers from the same anxiety

i know exactly what you're talking about

i've not answered phone calls from certain people because i'm always like "well what am i going to say? ..."

i've also done the rehearsal thing, and i do it a lot. if i do call somebody, i have to have at least an hour to prepare, and i normally dial the number without hitting send 'til the phone goes dim and i have to retype the number about 40 times.

i have to rehearse everything before i do anything.

if i'm about to go outside i constantly worry about the people that'll be "watching me" so i have to make sure i do everything to plan so that i "don't look stupid."

in fact, everyone is "always watching me" and "i always look stupid."

it's less "paranoia" than i'm making it sound, it's definitely social anxiety.

when i'm in public i'm always super tense and i'm always "acting." never am i doing anything in a way i'd do at home. i'm always trying to look "normal," always worrying that i'll "stick out."

it's really probably the same reason i cut off my dreads and shaved my huge beard. that time of my life got to be so crazy. i know it was the anxiety, but the anxiety definitely hyped up everything. i always thought people were staring at me, and most of the time they were, i know, but i'd ALWAYS catch it, and it was ALL the time. finally i couldn't handle it anymore and it was literally driving me insane (i remember the conversations i'd had with my then gf, "people are always staring at me," "you're just being silly," "they are REALLY staring at me.")

i am a crazy person.



oh, i forgot to mention, the whole "well why don't you just DO those things?" question

i hate that, and that's why it's so hard to explain. they're always, "well you know what you're doing, just don't do what you normally do."

yeah, okay. people just don't understand when i say "i just can't" i really mean that "i just can't."

and i know, my mom always taught me to never say never, but god damn, anxiety gets the best of even wise parental lessons

 

Yeah, my biggest thing is not wanting to look stupid, too. Like, I'm really reluctant to ask questions in class because I don't want to sound dumb, so I study waaayyy too much and go over what we are going to go over in class beforehand so I know everything already and THEN I ask really intelligent questions that I already know the answers to so I get good class participation points. That's pretty fucked up, huh? And when I have panic attacks, the root of it is not "AHH, I'm going to die" its "WOW, people are going to think I'm crazy if I have a panic attack right now."

But I do make a fool out of myself a lot because I feel like if you are extra outgoing and crazy, people care less? If that makes any sense? Like doing funny shit at open mic nights and performing never bothers me at all but if I'm talking alone with someone I really care about, I get way more nervous.

AHHH! I hear the ice cream man!!!! ICE CREAAAAMM!!

 

i always wanna order take out or pizza... and i never do it..

 

Who woulda thunk it that a bunch of stoners that spend a good chunk of time socializing online would have social anxieties... haha.

 

I used to have really bad social anxiety, I got over it though. Don't really know how or when but I just stopped caring about what others thought of me at one point.

 

I dont think its social anxiety if we all have the same thing... Like i dunno how to explain it but maybe alot of people are secretly afraid of these things but alot of people like cover it up i guess... I dunno im just saying its kinda weird that every single person whos posted in this topic (including me) seems to suffer from the same thing.. I think its just human nature

 

think of the fact that we're all on the internet conversing through impersonal means

and there you'll find your answer

 

Thats true i guess but still

 

i envy you

 

thats why we're all online instead of out and about...

 

Having anxiety doesn't make you a pussy.

 

being a pussy dont mean you have anxiety either..

 

no.. but you are what you eat.. i'll be a pussy any day

 

ya im just like you guys, but I had the most trouble sitting in class at college not knowing anyone, never wanting to look stupid... I hated it every day. Getting a job was tough too, but with repetition of the same thing every day its gets a bit better for me...