xangaish

http://xanga.com/geocivics

Fall victim to my lack of journal entries.

 

i got it in 2004before i knew about myspace too
i used to make entries like everyday:&

what a loser i was

 

Not a loser like me... I dislike Myspace and Xanga.

It's my lack of internet friends with either really...

 

I never did it for friends or whatever...

I just like getting my thoughts down.. And having a little online safe. ahha. For all my writins...

 

I don't feel accepted in such environments.

 

mine is more for me as well...
i suppose its also for people that dont know me to try to understand and atleast two do...

mine is sefisapriest...

damn the bb code
i also have a myspace thing but it seems less usefull for what i use xanga for...

 

same for me. i mean...people know about it. i usuallywrite in fragments.
so people won't completelyunderstand what im trying to say...
like if i sayyyyyy.
well. ex.
"i go into another dimension right before i go to sleep where i can control time.
and go to that boy sitting alone and ask him if i can sit with him and i smile the faintest smile. and as he looks at me his moon eyes grow soft.

he says he wants to come home with me and i wish he would but we are too young to make such decisions.

to the night at the ocean side.
i have to stop him from breaking her heart.

she cant touch him after hearing what i say. he tells her he would never do such a thing but hes a liar. cause he does...."

i def. deleted that after a while because idk. too personal...makes me seem like an emotional wreck.
but really its about wanting to change the past. regret. about my first love. then about my ex boyfriend and how he kind of broke my heart and how i wish i didnt get involved in the first place...but see how i dont just come out and say...well i miss the love of my life and my ex boyfriend really broke my heart...because well...either of them could be reading it...and yikes if they ever read this...kind of why....this is my secret life...i kind of open up to you peoples.